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and where is my angel waiting? :)
Good news, mom will may come back home this week (Kiitos Jumala!) and then my life might get a little bit back to normal.
Anyway, how should I convince myself to work hard for something which I might won't get? Which will never be released, never come true? Yeah it is an obstacle and we are here to cross over them but how, why, what, give me some help. Why am I here all alone for this all? I know, sure I have my family but right now I just have some remains of family, no contact with real world, school, work, anything. Almost like living in vacuum, but still I wouldn't say I'm just surviving and not living, I know I'm living and am grateful for it, but just need more than this... please!