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After another almost sleepless night with my other friend (again there's no chance to sleep when You're home alone lol) I am back home, yeah in PV and confused (in my heart) like hell.

Thank You everyone for everything, this week was fabulous, those comments, experience and new points of view at life was incredible. I feel alive, grateful and at the same time sorry...
let it be... it's weekend and I'm gonna relax and get back to the school world but still, why reality of some people is so cruel, that's not fair

hyvää viikonluppua!

Like it or not, but we did and we require the reward... how much was it, huh?

Writing with a guard behind my back right now, no, lol, I'm just enjoying everything even share the same bed *tricky smile* and listening to old times

awwww it's so damn nice to have friends who save You when You need... kiiti

We slept just for a while in the morning [You know, there are other things to do when You're home alone >]

pekny prvni maj vsem a... prace slechti

where to start? at the end? ehm...
k, I resume some things what happened during the past week

- the first highlight should be
TUESDAY 22-4-08, Prague, club Batalion, gig of Trevolution aka Essentia, Renoise and T.A.P.
All in all it was like digging back all the old times in Hell-sin-ki. The gigs were great, okey, I didn't know any of the songs so for me it was not nice that I couldn't understand the lyrics, but Essentia really kicked-asses, they have really communicative singer who is crazy :D in the possitive way! They were followed by Renoise, I enjoyed the most the second half of their set and if I write 'enjoy' I mean, I really did, some head bangs lol And T.A.P. well, I have seen a clone woah, the science is really far with the cloning DNA O.o T.A.P. were great but except 3 or 4 songs it all seemed to me like the same song, which is a pity, but have to admit that now I'm listening mostly to them and not anyone else of those bands. Mirror is my fave and I found out that I have added T.A.P. really long time ago to my mikseri.net friends or what is it called.
The time I have spent with Pee until our busses ran, was niiice but I found a really important thing for me, I prefere Helsinki's music scene to Tampere's one, but have to say in Tre is probably much more bands. Nevermind, I'm glad I balanced the short of the gigs (can You imagine, my last gig before Trevolution was Apocalyptica in November last year *rolling my eyes*) and to listen to all time Finnish was high of the performance lol.

- Second thought I wanted to write was about ZaYne I guess. I do like their new material and should really see them live finally, gosh, it's already 3 years or more.

- About the Helsinki in Berlin - I won the tickets :D Life is beautiful lol, but I didn't know I won but even thought I would have known, I couldn't go 'cos the way to Berlin is damn expensive but kiitos to Verca for the vids, can't wait to see them (Manboy rulez)!

- Last week I also found out how amazing friends I have, yes, I have just really few friends but at least they are real and they love me like I love them, I wish I could let them see my appreciation more!

- At last - I wanna go back to Helsinki, yeah, no Tre, just Helsinki would be cool, or Oulu, and see all the people I know (or wanna know) and rock like fuck [(c) to Janne] :D And I miss my finnish family, awwww, the kids has to be grown so much and know a lot of more things, I wish I could see them grow up more, those amazing little creatures (in good sence of meaning).

- But hey, soon the exams come, hope new life in GB and new experience... hehe just a thought, Ville will have b-day soon *was just a brainstorm thought*.

Kiitos kaikille ja Bananalle :D

"I am dried up, no more water in me..."
oh no, I am.. crying, yes, I so wanted to see them on Thursday but too late voi voi
but at least You all enjoy it!!!

and ZaYne made my day, I'm in their top friends (kiitos), will have to write them something, I still remember pretty well how we have met *spreading smile on my face*

and one more, I thought I will cancel also the meeting of 30stm fans tomorrow, but probably I won't, I'm quite glad about it


still, give me someone a lift to Berlin, please, I beg You on my knees... no, be brave (oh no song "Brave the new world" I love it), instead of a gig I will go to work :(

but Pee, on Tuesday, I am GOING!!!! like it or not :D *by Killer*

I did seen it!!! I did, I did, I did... oh my...
I've seen Jared talking about this movie recently and so today I've watched it. I have to admit I didn't expect anything like this, I'm full of impressions but yet speachless.
If Jared Leto would look like he's in normal, I wouldn't 'enjoy' the movie as much as after his transformation. I mean, he really had to do a lot for playing his character realisticly and he did it pretty well because I got the impression that it's not Jared Leto, the singer of 30 seconds to mars and an actor, I felt like I'm watchin Mark David Chapman, at least in the movie.
Jared says that the character changed the way he moved, the way he talked even the way he laughed and it seems like it really did and it's good for his role because he plays it like he felt it. I mean if he would stay the same old Jared Leto and got some padding to look like the real Chapman, he couldn't play it as great as he did because he wouldn't know how the man like him is feeling (not mentally but at least physicaly - which is also connected with mental part of person, for example if someone refuses You just because You are fat).
The movie got me shivers the whole time long, the only optimistic thing is probably the music in the background, I like it but I got frightened from time to time when there was a sudden move, You know, the whole movie is some kind of slow with depressive Mark Chapman's voice, and the longer it stays in this state, the more You get the real impression when there is something different (burst of anger) and You get swallowed up by the movie. Like You are some passer-by who is in safe and watch this tragedy. Not only the tragedy of homicide of John Lennon but more about the tragedy of the real Mark David Chapman.
Have to admit I'm sorry for him, I kind of know which feelings he probably had, like we all have from time to time. I wish he and all the people could cure their "minds and hearts" and get what they need but I also know it's not possible everytime as people don't wanna help others or they might are scared to help...

I found him, I found him, I did it... GREAT.
Just bumped here on irc on Rain Diary band and guess who is the singer, yeah, my beloved singer from SoulRelic, gosh, I'm so damn happy, I missed his voice but not anymore

btw. back to Reflexion album, I love it, reminds me of Poets of the fall, Soul Relic and something like Entwine. I will write a little review later.

Pee - kiitos, I know we didn't manage to talk about that emo and tons more, but it was pleasure to meet You again *kisses*

Finallyyyyyy :P I've heard the new album just once, so no proper review, but first song Non-stop glorious ride which hit my ears got me excited because I liiike it.
Maybe it's just a first sight but I feel like the new album 'Dead To The Past, Blind For Tomorrow' is more like For my pain again *I love them more than Reflexion, but Juha is Juha :D*
I can't remember any special song which would catch my attention mutta anyway I will definitely listen to it through the whole travel to Blava!!!!!!!!!

I can't already wait, nothing to forget, get everything what I need for new week. Btw. hope to see You Pee in Brno on Sunday *mlask*

What else, I dunno, lots of things in my mind but the most strange are my dreams... like reading a book in Finnish, speaking and understanding Finnish (in reality not much)... but more and more I love the language. Seems like the less I can speak it, the more I want it.

And I do miss... yes IT, minun kaupunki. I thought I will get there this year, well, I might not :( but it seems worse and worse. I'm sitting in a bus in Hradec (CZ) and instead of seeing the reality, I feel and see what I felt and saw in Helsinki, like I'd be in HKI which is quite desperate because when I suddenly wake up to the reality, I feel sorrow and sadness and I'm not able to live anywhere else. Well actually I am, but it's more like surviving not living.

But soon the exams will come again and summer!!! :P

http://www.myspace.com/renegadefive

awwww... finally someone new for me *happily singing around*

is a really nice song, not so addictive like Planet of the sun was, but still, I can't wait
btw. this year is in the name of so many new album releases like Reflexion, Snipe Drive, The Rasmus etc. etc.

in the song 'Won't let go' Jonne sings he "won't let go of the dreams that he was dreaming" and that line brought me to the point of my pointless surviving... "what I was dreaming about?" who knows, but I'm desperate of not knowing what to do next, everything seems to stop at some point and not grow on, I will have to get rid of this mood as soon as possible unless I will gone mad, because this "nothing-to-do" is already too much for me and I need to do something, no matter what, desperately!!!