found the deep love inside

back hOmE ???Perjantai 02.03.2007 20:35

yeah, I'm back in so called 'home' but I really feel like a stranger here
Czech is simply my home only on my ID card and on the map and other documents, not in my heart, mind, soul...
but still I do have home, yeah, I couldn't wish for a better one, only if I could live there forever

Hyvää Kalevalan päiväKeskiviikko 28.02.2007 15:03

... for the last timeTiistai 27.02.2007 16:07

I'm sitting in front of my window and like many times this month, staring into the streets and watching like the snowflakes are falling from the skies
I've already packed my luggage but still so many things left to be packed on Thursday
listening to Entwine's 'Closer' makes me feel the sadness that everything's over
well, it's not like that, just the part of my life here and not for ever, just few months, maybe a year and I'll be back

when I've been here in September, I left here my soul and my heart like in November 2oo5, but this time it was much more, because I just couldn't get along the thought of living in Hradec Králové
then one man came and brought back my heart from Finland to Hradec Králové (Czech) but my soul stayed here, therefor my heart wanted to go where my soul was
that's why I'm here but this time, I do know, I will leave here both, my soul, my heart, and my life

I just had the best time of my life here and I wanna thank everyone who gave me this opportunity, I really appreciate it, maybe I do not even deserve it but hope everyone will sooner or later live their dream as I could

APULANTALauantai 24.02.2007 21:28


Eurovision - Finland finalSunnuntai 18.02.2007 11:54

I wanted Lovex to win and Jann Wilde & Rose Avenue to be in the top 3 but it was all different.
But I don't have to regret 'cos I've voted and maybe it's better that Lovex didn't win... yet, it was I think too much in hurry, to be in Eurovision.
But I voted for Lovex because their song was most catchy I think. Thunderstone was really good, but I didn't like their attitude and their hairstyle lol Just too old for voting audience, I mean those young ladies. For them Lovex was perfect, good looking guys with a good catchy song, this song, the chorus just stucked in my mind but I couldn't get the rest of the words, so it means the song was not so easy to 'read', and that means I wouldn't stop listening to it after 3 times. But Hanna Pakarinen song, it was for me too simple, even though I like some of her songs and her voice.
It was catchy but on the contrary to Lovex Anyone, Anymore, it was too transparent that I would have enough of listening to that song Leave me alone after few times which is not good.
Everything bad has something good in it, so let's see. Lovex will go to Europe anyway, with or without Eurovision and it was a very good advertisement for them anyway.

Hehe what about Finnish Idols? That Ruslanas or what is his name, hihi, have to always smile when see him.

Private LineLauantai 17.02.2007 19:36

totally rocks, check them if you never done it before!

Evanescence - Good enoughPerjantai 12.01.2007 21:30

Under your spell again
I can't say no to you
crave my heart and its bleeding in your hand
I can't say no to you

Shouldn't have let you torture me so sweetly
now I can't let go of this dream
I can't breathe but I feel

Good enough
I feel good enough for you

Drink up sweet decadence
I can't say no to you
and I've completely lost myself and I don't mind
I can't say no to you

Shouldn't have let you conquer me completely
now I can't let go of this dream
can't believe that I feel

Good enough
I feel good enough
its been such a long time coming, but I feel good

and I'm still waiting for the rain to fall
pour real life down on me
cause I can't hold on to anything this good
am I good enough
for you to love me too?

so take care what you ask of me
cause I can't say no
dedicated to G. J.
except the chorus, it perfectly fits

Fallen AngelPerjantai 12.01.2007 17:13

10/1/06 - forbidden fruit taste the best but don't kill me for it
it was my sweet fault but what's the worst, I don't regret it, SHAME!

but it probably took all my illusions and dreams? ;-(

go homeKeskiviikko 20.12.2006 17:33

finally, broken, lonesom, but home, at least few days for studying, how much I hate myself that I didn't study more... my fault and I have to pay for it, but I won't loss/fail one more time, no way, not from such a stupid subject!

and hyvää joulua everyone and happy New Year


no namePerjantai 15.12.2006 22:39

On Monday my mom called me that my bro had a car accident... O.o
I was like somebody would stabbed me in my back (again)... after my shock and very long time she told me he is allright but at night I had a dream about my brother, it was the first time I had a dream with him! We both we're crying about the accident even though he had only light bruises, but still... I realized how much I love him even though I've never told him!

And since today I know what means: heart broken... the pain is so weight and my heart is torn into million of lil pieces just because of... I was walking the streets, sitting in buses with tears in my eyes, almost burst into tears too many times but I couldn't, there were people... oh, that's my weak side, I always think what other thinks about me and then... I miss lots of things, feelings, people...

nevermind, I always just mumblening, why not today but since September I've learnt so many things but still I'm just a kid who doesn't deserve love of someone else than family members and who can't dare to feel what people in my age can feel, 'cos they always say, you're a lil kid, you'll never know what we know, you'll never feel what we feel, you're nothing and stay in your childish shoes forever