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well i was watching this.
http://video.msn.com/?mkt=en-au&brand=ninemsn&tab=m182&mediaid=200718&from=39&vid=7861E3C5-D5AC-4D9C-A9A7-F737BF928596&playlist=videoByTag:mk:en-AU:vs:0:tag:auentertainment_aumovies:ns:MSNVideo_Top_Cat:ps:10:sd:-1:ind:1:ff:8A
a clip from HSM3 yeah.. all good and all happy cheeryness and all that crap
but then i found this and HSM will never be the same for me

http://celebrities.ninemsn.com.au/blog.aspx?blogentryid=160482&showcomments=true

yeah...

IT'S DONE i finlay finished it, after.. god knows how many months of pain! now i have to pay extra to take it on the plane... curses!
good thing it doesnt weight much. oh i wish i could show u guess, but then .. the slut will see it and it will ruin all my hard work so yeah n_n

oh.. the pain... the tragic epic pain...
my head is about to exsplode. when ever some one spoke to me it sounded like a gun going off in my ear ohh... i'll never drink like that again DX
on the other hand i had a great night. a few gate crashes showed up but i was too drunk to do fuck all about it. i hated one with a passion too!
ah...it hurts...

do you know what it like to have ur heart broken by some one who is not meant to hurt you like that?
my party is today and one of my best friends said "oh i cant come" i asked why and its because she wants to go FISHING!
it hurt me so bad. we have been friends for so long and this is whats more important to her and she promised to bring the gin and now she wont and now i have to spend even more money D:<
gah.
i wanna be home now i'm sick of it here. but i know i will miss my mum so badly. because she and my brother have been all i have ever had. and now... they will be gone...
man..
but... i have to move on i guess. i have 3 months to get that visa
if i dont get it, i guess i will be seeing my family sooner. but at the same time i dont wanna come back here because i need my fins so badly. i only feel like myself when i'm with them, because... i feel like i belong and i'm happy. its all so weird and scary for me.
i'm especially scared about flying there. i'm worried i'll miss my plane, i dont really wanna be stuck in china for 11 hours at the air port DX. and i'm worried about when i touch down in Helsinki, that i wont know where to go or i'll get lost and miss my train or... oh god knows.. maybe i should get in contact with Akseli and he might be able to help me get there on time but i feel guilty because i only contact him when i need help and i really like Akseli, he was my first finnish friend and i have to admit i had a smallllll-ish crush on him when he was in Australia XD. but now he's just a great mate.
eek. i hope that Else can come and get me... or i hav to rely on my finnish speaking skills... oh god... i'm doomed...
ok, maybe if i just ask some one for a bus that takes me to the train startion i shall be fine, and ask the lady for a ticket to Oulu.. yeah... that sounds like a plan... hmmm...

at the momnet... i'm watching Satu and Mert... play something, i hazard a guess that its Melee...
aand every time i look at the screen they are looking at me... and slowly... they are... getting closer and closer to to the bottom of the screen... wtf ... is he doing? he has almost folded over on himself lie some kind of .. suitcase... lol. dam i hope he dyes his hair.. not blonde... thats my thing. stealing my style D: < gah. oh well. hmmm... satu still looks the same as when i last saw her... thats colol, thats ind of what i want, i dont want people to change, because ever one was so perfect to me before, even with all ya flaws XD
ohho man i'm cold i cant feel my fingers. why is it so fucking cold here, i like in Australia... its not meant to be cold! gah
i hate the cold... why am i going to finland... i'm mad.. thats it ive lost my mind DX

oh god, i went to Colleens Boyfriends party... he's only 16 but meh, what ever.

(omh i want Satu boobs.. their huge on this angle!)

but yeah anyway.. Loki is the boys name.. short for Lochlan i guess. FREAK omg huge freak. he THINKS he's a vamprie! and that he has multiple personalities, like... 8! and his ahir is like... HUGEEEEE!!!! like ihave never see hair like that not even on hairspray! not even if asanti was to gro a fro!
man! like he's not mean, just somehting wrong going on it there and this kid called Phillip... i wanted to smack him out with in 2 seconds of meating him. like bam, right in his face.. but i was wearing a long dress that cost me 100$ and i wanst gonna risk the blood cause its white. AND colleen wa attacking me on the floor cause i beat her at sing star and my bracelet got stuck in my dress and mad a run in the top near my boob! it took me hours and hours and HOURS to fix it just working away fisxing it and u know what. i FIXED IT BITCHES cause i'm good!

ok enough rant i'm good now n_n

with only 14 days remaining in Australia i have still got so so so soooo much to do. i have one week left at work which means i will have a week off before i come to finland.

OH Next top model in on. i'll finish this latter

nooo A.j was voted out that fails, i liked her D: <

oh well, YEAH. so yeah going away party in australia will be on this Saturday X3 its huge! like super huge. i know i bitch about being lonley and shit and that i'm kinda anti social here, but believe it or not, i had alotta friends in my town before i left and turns out most of them still love me to death so their all comming to say good bye to my fat white ass <3 and the friday before that i have Colleens boyfriends (he a freak oh so fucking freakishly freaky) birthday party, he's having a 'gothic' theme.... so instantly, i have brought myself some PVC, sexylicious black pvc to make myself a sexy goth cause i aint no drab wrist cutten be-ya-ch!

so yeah. i'm a little sad to be leaving. i have been thinking about if i dont come back i might not ever see my friends again, my family... every one... but... at the samre time, i'm so torn, because i now find that there are people in finland that i find it unbareable to live with out...
oh well.... in two week we shall see wont we.

me and dylan are so sad. we got onto Youtube tonight... for no reason and watche alll the starts of the pokemon anime... now for some over powering reason... i was pokeon season one as my ring tone. gotta love being a nerd XD
that... and we have started to play our gameboys again :D

i have been watching the olympics lately... ok alot. i never used to but suddenly i find it so intresting. OMg for me! i only have 20 days left FUCKING finaly!
oh i cant wait to get on that plane! when i come home i want much hugs and kisses and humping! its not asking, its demanding!
i have realised something as well.... i have too many shoes... and can not take them all... which means D: i have to chose which ones i love the most and have the others sent over latter, like latter latter next year latter. i dont know if i can live with out all of my shoes...
i only have 2 weeks left at work... thank god about to exsplode there, want... to ... kill! people DX
i realise that i'm not a frienly person and i'm kinda a snob XD because i'm so funny about who i talk to now at work, i'm lucky me and my friends have some what taken over the store, yay for being old. this next few weeks will be so so soooo busy! because i have lori birthday, mum's birthday, My going away party, C.jays boy friends party... (i dont even know him, she is just making me go!)
i still dont know if i should one. buy and Ipod... or two. buy a phone. maybe i wait till i come to finland to get the phone so that it works wit my DNA sim.
weird, my finnish phone still gets text messages from DNA. pity... i dont know what they say XD
sooo yeah. i plan on tring to lose some weight before i come home i mean like... hmmm... 8KGS! is alot to gain, but Taryn at least lose 2KGS! gah.... i hate being fat, my boobs got bigger ( . )( . )
but... so did everything else... i miss being skinny... er... ish...
hmmm
ok i'm always going to be a little fat but i miss being toned and having muscel. must starve self... must eat cotten and paper XD

also i hate girls... i think most of my friends are now 16 year old boys... girls are annoying. i like my fin girls.. duh and some aussie girls, but other then that,.... nope... dont like em... idiot, always acusing me of trying to steal her boyfriend... i would not touch him with a ten foot stick! not my fualt he likes me.. pah... idiot

ehrrrg.... i'm so sick lately i think i might cough up a lung DX
i need to get better before i get on that fucking plane or they can refuse to let me fucking fly!
i spoke with Else last night. she said the best place for some one like me to try and get a job would be at the international school or at the English kindergarten. i hope i get work oh god please give me work... and a visa XD
ah i nearlly had a heart attack before when i was reading what had been happening in the world of Capi and Tika and the apartment... because as much as i love being in Stockmann.... i dont wanna have to live in a box next to it. anhd i really dont wanna live with any one else no offence, cause well every ones got their own thing going on and tika and capi seem to be the only ones who have time for me so yeah.

27days!!!
*breaths too much and suffercates*
OMG, there is so much i still wanted to do before i left! sigh, oh well.
lol i had the bestest fun last weekend. me and charlie went out drinking.... got... wasted, beyond wasted. i havent goten drunk since my 19th so yeah.
ah this guy would not leave me alone, i even abused him with my fist and he kept comming back! this is why you should not kiss while dunk, they think you wanna come home with them. i have huge scratch makes down my back from Charlie when she trie to get my attaention, blood went every where and she stepped on me in her high heels, more blood and and she vomited on us. it was all brown and sticky... like... you dont wanna know what like.
but it was so funny too bcause me and Charlie had 100$ tickets which meant we has free alcohol all night, but still guy where buying us drinks XD and when guys were u-g-l-y we would speak in finnish or swedish for Charli... too bad i would be saying like... "yksi, kissa, omena lumi ja kello huutiku" and they guys were like OMG thats so cool what did you say. i... would nearly piss myself laughing!

ah its all so good

oh i'm so unlucky DX. we lost the fuckng snake last night i came home and she was not in the tank. after 3 hours of looking we found her in a light cover *few*
and i get up this morning and the dog has like.... a huge foot its twice the size of all her other feet and now i must take her to the fucking vets DX

i cant wait to come back to oulu... i feel attention and love deprived here. i dont get hugs/kisses or get to hold peoples hands and of cause i am never randomly moletered... what kind of world is this!!!