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And so I've said too much and not enough
And so the play is finally at an end
You never had the care to call my bluff,
and so I must be pleased to be your friend
But what then was the purpose of this game?
I never really had a chance to win
It's true, I rather like who I became
But what am I to do with who I've been?
For I may wish to meet myself someday
among the ashes of a fire long dead
To see my shadow there and hear it say
that it was happy with the life it led
What emptiness awaits me? This I fear
Far more than any peril I might face
My purpose in this world became less clear
When you were taken from your cherished place
Within my wishing heart and went your way
So willingly it almost makes me ill
To think it never crossed your mind to stay
Pushes the dagger deep, completes the kill
And yet how much of this was done by me?
Had I the courage would you still have flown?
How sad to think this was not destiny
But my mistake, yet how could I have known?
Now here is my dilemma, as it seems
Do I accept the score that fate has set,
And calmly watch the passing of my dreams
Or do I dare to place another bet
That where the curtain falls another rises
If I am wrong then strike me for my sins
But I believe our acts and thin disguises
Where but a prologue to what now begins

Have you ever tought, what would it be if you could unmeet a person?
I mean, to live your life from when you met the person, to this day again.
Would it be better?
I could almost promise my life would.

I would probably live a laid back life with my friends without a hint about this person.
Probably found myself a nice girl who I could trust and stuff, who kept her promises.

Someone who also sees me, not just my money.

I can almost say this one just saw my wallet...
Or so it feels.
I could be wrong.
But I doupt.

The way the person acted, the way she spoke, even to me.
I could promise it was my wallet...

Or did she really care?
How can I know for sure?

Well, I can't.
Too bad.

Is it second or thrid time now, as she causes a disapointment for me?
Should this be the last time?

Eventho she is someone I could live my life with.

Maybe I just should cut it...?

I would break my promise by it...

But still... is this shit worth of a promise?

I've always kept my promises, the big ones I mean.

But this one, is it worth it?

It feels like it would be

But still, it feels to be so... vain.

But is it?

I can not know it before I try

To keep a promise, and see the result?

Either disapoint a begin another spiral of depression?

or just cut it.

Live my own life as a maniac?

Which I am.

or start a new life, in another city.

Find job, take a loan, leave everything behind me.

My friends, those ho were important for me, and those I couldn't give a shit for?

All sound promising, but new life, would be a dream.

Clean paper, no so called friends around me.

No painful memories to be reminded daily.

New tablet for my life.

New people to meet.

Maybe this is my destiny, to change place.

I would leave alot of dear memories behind.

But some so painful

Getting rid of few painfuls is wrth of bunch of good ones

If you were me, you'd understand.

The people I would die for, or once would.

Now their just painful memories haunting my mind.

If I moved, I'd forget them soon

I'd finaly sleep well.

Sleep...

What a wonderful thing...

Yeah it would be but like I would sleep for a while...

Sometimes I just feel like getting wasted, probably killing everything I see,

too bad we got no death sentences around here...

death.. oh that peace would be wonderful

But who would do my job?

Maybe moving would be the right answer.

Death is for weak.

Not really, some really don't have other answers.

Well they do, but they can't chose other.

It wouldn't be worth it

Think of the people who they leave behind

Their family, friends, everything.

The fuck am I saying? I just mentioned about killing bunch of people...?

BAH! Bullshit, death to those who run their mouth at me inside few days

not in the mood...

I'd really like to escape the reality once in a while

But then again, the drop back to the reality would be too much

But as I mentioned, it would be a dream to unmeet someone.

To think how my life would've changed.

To good?

Or to bad?

No one never knows...

Maybe I just feel like it would change into better?

Maybe I'm just too fucking angry to think clear?

Maybe I just should relax, sit back, take a few punches at the brick wall

That sounds like a plan.

Beat it till I have no knuckles left to beat it with.

I hunger for blood now...

Not my own, someone elses... the taste...

Call me a weirdo, like I gave a shit about your opinion.

Really, you can say anything, I might beat the shit out of you

Just cause I goet a reason to

But do I give a shit?

Nope.

I might be different from others.

Well, I am.

But for your own sake

Don't mention it.

† Stormrage † says:
voisin kuvitella sut meiä Wacken kuskiks

Necro says:
:D
Necro says:
hähähä

Necro says:
rattijuopumussyytteitä tulis MUUTAMA

Necro says:
ajan viittäsataa asuntoautolla 3 promillen humalassa

Necro says:
ei mut vittu, pitää varmaa asentaa jettaan vakionopeudensäädin, motaril ei tartte ku ohjata

† Stormrage † says:
kyä;D

† Stormrage † says:
voit runkata samalla

Necro says:
nii

† Stormrage † says:
jalalla?

Necro says:
ei

Necro says:
vaan toisella kädellä

Necro says:
ei ohjaamisee kahta tartte

† Stormrage † says:
Eiku jalat ratilla ;D;D;D

Necro says:
jaa

Necro says:
mää aattelin et kojelaudalla tai pelkääjän paikan penkillä

† Stormrage † says:
;D;D

Necro says:
ikkuna auki ja istun siinä oven päällä, paskannan siitä

Necro says:
se olis hienoo

Necro says:
ajat kahtasataa motarilla ja väännät paskaa

† Stormrage † says:
Tuutko mun kans parolaan? <3
Necro says:
meen minne pääsen, voi olla että koitan pirkkalaaki, mut kuskiks yritän, menin sitte mihin vaa
† Stormrage † says:
Vittu tuut mun kans harrastaa tiukkaa seksiä panssarivaunussa ;D
Necro says:
ei se oo sun kanssa tiukkaa nähnykkää

Doupt thou the stars are fire...
Doupt thou the sun doth move...
Doupt truth to be a live...
But never doupt...

My love...

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My hate was folded inside you palm, now you've opened the palm.

The hate begins to fill my mind

My mind becomes unclear

My veins begin to pump bloodlust

Which was yours to keep sealed

Now the seal is broken

My bloodlust rises

soon I lose myself

Soon I no longer am who I am

I begin to fade away

And as I fade

I begin to lose my humanity

My thoughts no longer have a meaning

I become violent

I no longer have a target for my feelings

And now the feelings turn to hate

The hate blinds my mind

Hate against everything

We promised eachother to protect one from everything

Now my protection against myself has flawed

It's not yet broken

But when it does, I will fade away

And I will not fade away alone

I take someone with me

The love I had for you, now turns into what fill my vains

Hate...

Now my veins begin ill with hate

The hate grows

I just hope you make the right decision and save me

If not, I will fade away

I become a ghost among others

Ghost of my old self

A Ghost...

I become feelingless...

numb...

A ghost with grudge agains everyone I used to love

All my friends become foes

All my enemies will become even worse

Now I'm vulnerable

I no longer have the solid shield I used to have

Now, without my shield, nothing to seal my hate away

I become dangerous, for myself and others

Only choise is to unfold my hate a shed it to my targets

or seal myself away, in a coffin

six feets under the ground

Laying down there

Peacefully

please, do not worry that, you'll forget me soon, as you've already done

Yeah, you'll forget me.

I believe you'd like to say you won't forget.

But by the recent event I doubt I would trust you.

or maybe I should trust you.

Maybe I'm just underestimating you

Maybe you're not making the mistake

Well, it wouldn't be a mistake, everyone has their own minds

Maybe I just consider it as mistake

Maybe it's the right choise for you

Maybe that is what makes you happy

I just can't fullfill you

Maybe it someone else

Eventho I would like to let my anger float out

Target to the possible someone else

But I will not

Why?

Because at the moment, you are the most important thing in my life

And will be, for a long while

And I would never, EVER make you sad

I would take my life rather than make you sad

All the time you consider

To be the seal around me

It's getting weaker, my hate begins to float out.

Even now, the demons inside me are being setting lose

I actualy feel good

I feel good to be set loose

It's just...

It's not humane, it's not unhuman

It's something much more greater

Cannot be describet with words

Words, so... weak things...

Which is why I was about to show my feelings in solid way

With rings

Which you already have in your hand.

Make you mind.

Return them both in one piece, and forget me.

Let my demons take over, let me become a maniac.

Or return just half of it and live with me

Seal my demons inside with the half of the ring, help me live as myself.

Make the call. Both are right. Both are good. For one of us, but still.

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