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..and all the fans of the band Budulínek can kiss my ass. I really won't weep the geniality of lyrics about killing pigs with a chainsaw. If someone likes it, their problem. I don't. My problem. Full stop. Face it.

And everyone can kiss my a*s.

Bad day.

Wittu.

I'm seriously thinking about leaving out Backyard Babies this Saturday.. First, I don't have money, second, I totally don't feel like going there.. But again there's this feeling 'missing something'.. Well well.. I guess I will probably go if I don't find any decent second option. I do want to see them, but on the other hand I feel like there's no point for me of going there.. I don't know.. I'm definitely not staying at home, because that's the least acceptable thing to do. OK, let's see..

And no Manzana on Tuesday.. :-(

In continuation of the conversation between me and my mum last night I've been watching several advertisements at Youtube..

http://cz.youtube.com/watch?v=dpf2hsZGsJM

http://cz.youtube.com/watch?v=lGb7xTdO8k4
"Don't you wanna put her in the baby seat?" - "Oh, it's just around the corner.."
"Are you ready even to pay such a price?"

http://cz.youtube.com/watch?v=Lgj-CU9ZR4g
"Will we be there on time?" - "Don't worry, I'll take it fast."
"Don't take decisions about others' lives.."

http://cz.youtube.com/watch?v=Lb5q_YYpxB0

This is not a commercial, but made me cry even more..
http://cz.youtube.com/watch?v=46AR-e7WE6k

Besides other they make me homesick. Make me miss the ones I love the most and suffer from not being with them..

F*cking money. Hopefully Veri will send me the money for the Norther album soon. At this moment 10 Euros is way too much for me to cope without. Or then if mum can send me something when she gets back home.. I will see.. If I just leave out the gig on Tuesday, I will be able to pay all the stuff on Sunday.. I actually hate the fact that lately I haven't been able to count how much I can spend and how much has to stay left. But- I have to ask Lea to check what time the gig at Sputnik really begins, because if it starts at eleven, there's no point of going there at all, when the last bus leaves at 23:10.. I will see. And I hate saying 'I will see'. I can't really count on money from MS, because it will be some 6e, if it was all during last month, which I'm not even sure about.. Sh*t.

Edit: Yeah, I'm getting some 3e for November. Even though I should get all the 6, because all the 4 articles were written in November. But since they were corrected A WEEK after they were submitted, they'll probably be counted as December. By the way- what's the f*cking point of publishing a NEWS article a WEEK after it was submitted?!?!?!?!

Yeah, I'm still waiting for the decision.. Is there any point for me of staying there? My nerves are worth more than 6e. The hell they ARE!! When I consider how much my nerves have been on the run only for the articles during November.. I just get pissed off even more.. Actually anytime I start thinking about MS I get pissed off. And that should mean anything..
So I guess I'm leaving after the report from HIM at Helldone. If they really say no in the end, I'm quitting right away.. And I'm not sure what I should ask Valo for- so that they want it and I get some money from it, or so that they simply say no and make it easier for me?
A considerable reason to stay are the tours in the spring. I really want to let people know about them and this is a good way, since it's an official website. But there's again this BUT- is there any point of staying because of this when I know that the boss doesn't want them? (at this point I'm forcing myself not to start swearing about the idiotic leadership again..) Seriously, with this the whole redaction team lost all the credits for me.

No, I won't talk about these things. Not now. Good night.

Edit/next day: Why do I even care?

What? On Sunday at eight? Gentlemen, yahoo! :-) That means that if they really DO start at eight, I could maybe cathc the bus at 23:15 and be at home after midnight, instead of six in the morning.. Well, we'll see. And according to the fact that my first thought about that was 'so I'm leaving right away after Esse', I'm probably going to Klubi, too :-) Nice nice.. Only with the shoes I will have to see- if they survive Saturday, I will search for some black tape on Sunday to fix them. If they don't, I will have to ask Leena and Marko for the money in advance so that I can buy a new pair. This pisses me off. I didn't count on buying new shoes, I'm wondering what I won't have money for instead..

No nii, the Skype is paid and works, so I can call any landphone in Europe for 5e a month. But kick my a*s next time I say that 5e a month is nothing.

I'm just browsing Google for pictures of my country and, oh God, I'm getting homesick..

..and that information in my account window saying '+2,61 Euro' gets me depressed..

So me attending or not attending the gig of Manzana on Tuesday depends 100% on how much money I'm getting per week this month. If they really count so that I should get the 260e for the month, I should have nearly 90e for this week and I'm happy. If I get only the 65 or something, I'm lost and can't go to the gig :'( And I'm getting nervous that I still don't have the money on my account. I'm REALLY gonna need them, since now I have some 20e. At all. And from that I have to pay the bus, something to drink and a present for the Pikkujoulut..
But I'm so excited about that party!! x)) With the girls it's always fun, no matter what we do :-)

For some reason I'm totally excited about the Kaijakka gig on Sunday. No idea why. Concerning Bandage on that night, I'm starting to think 'I'm getting in for free or not at all'. I guess now it will depend on Lea. If she gets better mood and wants to go, I'm going. If she's not going and the VL doesn't work out, I guess I'll give up on Esse and come for Kaijakka only. For some reason I've been kind of sick of Esse lately and don't know why. Seriously, I like them, but lately I can't listen to them and I'm not even really keen on seeing them on stage.. I don't know. I'm sorry for that, it's actually, taken in the wider area, one of my favourite bands, I don't understand why I can't listen to them now.. And I'm pissed off, they don't play THAT often, why do I have to be in such a mood right at the time when they actually DO play?? A few weeks ago I couldn't wait for this gig.. :-( Alright, I will see. Keep fingers crossed for me that I get in to enjoy the gig..

..not in a long time something like that has made me cry..

http://cz.youtube.com/watch?v=vr3x_RRJdd4

..when you know what it's like when 5e extra can save your a*s..