IRC-Galleria

Aamulla satoi lunta. Isoja, kauniita pumpulisia hiutaleryppäitä. Melkein harmitti kun oli pakko mennä eikä voinut jäädä seisomaan kasvot kohti taivasta. Mutta vain melkein. Ei voinut oikeasti harmistua. Oli niin kaunista. Sinisiä varjoja, lämpimän kellertäviä valoja, valkeaa raikasta untuvaa poskilla. Tuolle sen täytyy tuntua, kun talvi rakastaa.

Huikeet 1kk herkkulakkoo takana, ja nyt jo tekee tiukkaa. Tai on tehny jo useemman päivän. Kuolaten vaan kattelen kun joku syö pullaa tai sipsiä tai karkkia tai jäätelöä tai... tai...
Myäh! Mistähän ihmeestä ja sielun sopukoista mä kaivan lujuuden pysyä tässä päätöksessä...? Motivaattoreita ei ole paljon (joskin sitten ne muutamat sitäkin tärkeempiä), ja kannustusta vielä vähemmän. Monta kertaa jo nyt parin päivän aikana oon käyny silmäilemässä herkkuhyllyjä, mittaillu katseella pullatiskejä... Vielä on jääräpäisyys voittanut. Mutta kuinka pitkään? Kestääkö se?
Huojuvilla riippusilloilla liikutaan. Joka jalansija katottava tarkkaan vaikka tekis mieli juosta, ja alla odottaa itseinhon ja -pettymyksen raivoava joki...

Vuosi vaihtuu. Taas uusi mahdollisuus kuoria vuoden kuonat sielusta ja aloittaa puhtaasti.
Vaikka joka päivähän sen voisi tehdä. Ihan joka hetkikin. Aloittaa alusta, puhtaalta pöydältä. Tiedän sen.
Mutta numeroiden maaginen taika on vaan juurtunut jo mieleen. Uusi hahmo vuosiluvussa on kuin pehmeä, virkistävä tuulenhenkäys joka pyyhkii murheet kasvoilta. Kuin lempeästi otsalle ja poskille putoavat viileät lumihiutaleet jotka sulaessaan vie rauhattomuuden mennessään.

hyvää, antoisaa ja puhdasta Uutta Vuotta 2008!
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29.11..
..mutta kun on vaan ihan tyhjä. Ei ole mitään. Mä en ole mitään. Mitään ei tule eikä tapahdu. On vaan kamalan tyhjää...
...en ole enää se sama kykenevä tapaus mikä joskus oon ollut...
...jää vain luu käteen...
...muut hölkkää eteenpäin elämän asfaltilla, minä juuttuneena tervaan...

30.11.
Ja kuitenkin suurin osa elämästä ihan kunnossa. Ehkä mä vaan oon hemmoteltu, kaiken helpolla saanut nyhväke, joka ei osaa itte tehdä mitään ja rääkyy sitten kun ei kaikki tipukkaan valmiina syliin. Vaikea sanoa.
Voi kun tulis jo nurkka, käännös, uusi risteys vastaan. Tää tasainen puuro tukahduttaa mut. Yksin räpistely ei riitä, kohtalon pitää vähän auttaa. Auttaisit jo...

Mä olin moukari tänään. :) Aamureeneissä jodan-lyöntiin horjutus ja shihonage. Ja meikä näyttöukena. Omote oli jo melko vauhdikas, mut ura-puoli oli kyl aika kiertoratakamaa. Onneks sentään senpai pyöräytti mut pari kertaa ennen näyttöä. Pääs komeet ulahdukset. Osasin sitte näytössä olla hiljaa. *heh* Vähän vaan jänskätti hyökätä, kun ennen näyttöä tehdessä senpai vaan tuumi, että ”nyt en ittekkää tiiä mitä täältä tulee”. Ahhaha… No onpa sitte kiva hyökätä siihen, ku muutenki aina jännittää että mitähän seuraavaks tapahtuu. :) Noh, mutta hengissä selvisin taas.
Irtos kyllä taas hyvii vinkkei. Sen moukari-shihonagen (elikäs ura-puolen) uken saa liikkumaan herkemmin, kun vähän vetää horjutuksen jälkeen vielä kohti omaa lantiota. Kontakti-kokyunagessa myös nagen kontaktikäsi rentona, gyakuhanmikontakti kylkeen kiinni, ja uke lähtee aihanmi-kontaktista herkemmin mae-ukemiin kun ’vedättää’ sitä ensin vähän ja sitten oman kropan ukemihtavalla liikkeellä uken nakkaus. Nuo kun sitte muistais vielä toisenki kerran. Tatamilla. Ei tuo kontaktihommeli kyllä mitenkään helpoimmasta päästä ole…
Eilen honasin että PAH! mä mihinkään Mikkelin graduointiin ehdi. Taidon dantai-kisat on vasta edeltävänä viikonloppuna, joten sitä ennen jok’ikinen tiistai (ja muutki taidotreenipäivät) on kiinni siinä reenissä. *HUOKAUS* Noh, mutta ehkä mä sitte jokus graduoin…jossain…kaiketi…

Ihan paska päivä. Noh, reeneis oli kyl kivaa. Etenki kun senpai irroitti käsillä hartioita ja kielenkannattimilla nauruntyrskähdyksiä heti aluksi. Niin oli hauskaa, että piilari oikeen tipahti. (Vieläkään en ihan ymmärrä miten niin kävi – ja vielä ihan vaan seizassa – mutta niin vaan kävi.) Ja sain vielä kolme isoa, hanaa, lämmintä, isoa, mojovaa halausta. Eli ihan kivaa oli treeneissä. Ja hauskoja juttuja. Kunnes sitten tuli tobikoshiukemi. Itku meinas päästä. Ihan oikeesti. AHDISTAA! Mä en vaan kykene uskaltamaan tekemään sitä. VITUTTAA! Se ei voi olla niin kovin vaikea juttu, mutta kun ei vaan uskallus anna periks. TURHAUTTAA! Kaiken järjen mukaan siinä ei oo mitään kamalaa eikä kummallista, mutta kun ei vana kykene hahmottamaan liikettä ollenkaan niin ei sitten kykene uskaltamaankaan. Vituttaa kuin pientä oravaa. Aivan paska juttu. En haluu enää ees aatella asiaa.
Eilen oli sensein treenit. Vain tunti, mutta paljon siinäkin ehti. Mitään en muista, kylläkään. Mutta se nyt ei ole mitään uutta. Häiritseviä kontaktiharjotteita tehtiin aluks. Sen vaan muistan. Ai joo, ja kontaktitreeniä sinälläänki, että nagen piti valita tekniikasta ura tai omote sen mukaan miten uke liikkuu tai reagoi. Hyviä harjotteita kyllä. Ei niin että tässä vaiheessa vielä ehtis mitään mihinkään reagoimaan, mutta ajatus oli hyvä. Sitte joskus mäki ehkä ehdin tommosia reagointeja harjottelemaan. Jahka on tarpeeks virrannu vettä sillan ali…
Mutta silti tänään vituttaa ja on paska päivä.

Olipa kivaa: pitkästä aika Pasin aamureeneissä. Tosin olipa taas tyhmäapina-aamu tänään. Oli kyllä tietty vähän haasteellisempaa asiaakin (hanmi handachiwazaa), mutta silti oli kyllä tukanjuuri niin jumppasessa, ettei mitää meinannu mennä jakeluun. Teki kyllä toisaalta ihan hyvää konttailla enemmän. Kun siis kuitenkin sitäkin pitää oppia, oli jalat kipeet eli ei. Eihän siitä nyt mukavaa tai ees siedettävää saa vielä näillä taidoilla ja jaloilla, mutta tuleepahan tehtyä ja totuteltua.
Jeij! \o/ Tällä viikolla pääsee Karin reeneihin. ^_^

IHANAA! Tänään piiiitkästä aikaa takasin aikidotatamille. Virpi-senpain aamureenit osoittautui justiin kaivatunlaiseksi hiki- ja sykejumpaksi. IHANAA! Hitsi että kyllä kaipasinkin sitä meininkiä. Vaikka kyllä tietty eilen ja toissapäivänä pääsin taidoilemaan, mutta siellä ei jotenkin päässy samaan hikeyteen kun tuolla. IHANAA! Teki kyl tosi kutaa, mieli on taas virkeempi ja energisempi ja valoisampi. Ja Emman ja Virpin näkeminen lämmitti entisestään mieltä. IHANAA!
Mutta pistipä senpai taas kovillekki välillä. Udekimenagesta yokoukemi teki tiukkaa. Aluks ei millään meinannu pystyä kykenemään. Jarrut kirskahti päälle kun piti lähteä ukemiin. Mut sitte jahka vähän tahtia hidastettiin ni uskalsi pillinorsukin kokeilla. Paitti että Virpi piti kyllä melko napakkaa tahtia siltikin. Oikeen silleen usutti nopeuttamaan. Riivatun naikkonen.. *naur*
Mutta olipa kivaa. Ja teki hyvää. Ja illala pääsee vissiin uudestaan. Jeij! :)

Wehee! \o/ Meikä oli Kiinas! ^_^
Melko hiano reissu. Ei osaa ees kertoo. Kaoottista, joviaalia, kaunista, suurta... paljon kaikkea. Se on Peking.
Ja muuri iha pähee. Kapeempi ku mitä ootin, mut leuka loksahti ku kerrottiin että jos muurin venyttäis suoraks ni se yltäis linnuntietä Pekingistä Helsinkiin. 8| Eli piiiitkästi päälle 6000k:a... Ei jumalauste... 8|

Mut hianoo oli. Kuviaki on. Kallerijassa.

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