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every tomorrow will turn into yesterday
and the future will never come
there is only this moment
and every second it turns into past

everything becomes a memory
insignificant things drown in the sea of events
things that happen now, its only them existin
noone knows which "now" is next

once upon a time a wizard created two girls, he wanted both of them to be blond, with blue eyes, because the wizard was evil a bit and he wanted to hav daughters lookin like princesses, so that ppl would av thought that he is a king, but as the wizard at the moment of creation had the woooorst hangover wizards can hav, the girls were ginger and black. and they looked like witches. the wizard knew that he cant hang around with these kinda women, bcz ppl were really scared of any kind of magic, so they cud destroy him and the girls. the reason why the girls were lookin like witches was that they were hot - long hair, long legs and of course big boobs. the wizard didn know how he cud use those women, he tried to make em do the house work - they cudn, they already had this thing with nail breakin. he tried to make them look less sexy, but they said fuck u to the wizard. but once them three decided to drink because of their unhappiness (they had to hide themselves), so they drank and drank and drank, till the night fell down on the village and all of the evil and sneaky ppl came out. suddenly the drinks ended and wizard wanted more, but he didn wanna move anywher, so he though "hmmm, i hav no money, and i dont wanna use ma magical powers to make money, hmm, ill send one of the girls to get money and drinks, its dark noone will see their hotness and kill us." so he sent ginger head first, she was away for quite a while but when she came back she had a lot of drinks, and one cud av found money in her tiny shorts and black bra, that she made look like a tiny top. wizard asked her where she got everything from, she just smiled drank a bit more and passed out. the money that she brought was enuf for another 3 days. then on the 4th day, wizard while drinkin sum rum though: "now i can use the black haired one" and he sent her to the dark streets of the village. the same thing as last time when ginger head was sent happened to the black head woman. wizard asked her, she smiled, drank a bit more and passed out.the next day while the women were sleepin, the wizard thought of that magic that those women do, apparently it was much more powerful than his magic. then he understood what happened. the next minute, him and the women still pased out were goin to a big city. the wizard became the first pimp in the world. the end.

listenin to the song "glory box"by portishead.
..........................."give me a reason to love you, give me a reason to beeee-h-eee.... a womaaan, i justa wanna be a woo-h-maaan".........

if u think of it, what reason would u give as a proper one to love u? never thought of it, huh?
prettyness isn enuf to love for, many ppl are pretty, the one that loves u could as well love them all
smartness isn enuf as well, how many ppl DO NOT love smartasses?
being a nice person? well evryone is nice and at some points not very nice at all that u wanna go "oh, fuck you, bitch"

i love him, because he is just that way i like. all the good sides and all the bad sides make me love him. ye, ye, bad sides as well.

gimme summer night and stars i will show ma happyness

lookin through the fotos that dont represent
anythin
tho still it is seen how i changed durin the past years
how is it gonna be
that i cant find exactly what i want
the way i wanna be
the way when it is the real me
how long it is gonna take to be open perfectly for the world
they say im closed
but maybe i can be opened
to see the soul inside out
the naked truth
how long it is gonna take to put ma mind in order
to get the troubles all away
to find the way to go, holdin the hand of the one i got?
gimme a piano ill show u how i feel
makin the random sounds of me
ill play everything i had and hav
ill show how sad and arrogant the music can be bcz it is me
gimme a pencil and paper ill show what i got
with the simple lines i make
gimme ppl and music ill show how ma life is
ill make them dance the way it was

sometimes when im surrounded by ppl i still feel lonely. like ppl make groups and i dont belong to any of em.
rabbits.
fire.
fun and laugh.
wtf
u make it go all argh.

they say i have to be home at 8, do ma hw, and go to eat and sleep. well fuck it. im not doin it.
home? they call it home... do i call it home? maybe only ma room,ahhh, why cant i separate it?....

sudden wakin up and returnin to the actual world. after several days fo bein sumhow hypnotized by freedom and no time limits. and suddeny everything seems to be normal again, but this normal seems to be too difficult, too challengin, too much of it. april. almost half of it is done. got may left and well ok the other half of april. o'rite. this freakin time runs too fast. never hav time to do everything i want. it means i gotta abandon sum things, and most of the time it wud be those things that i like, that make ma life... complete?.. i dont like this word, seems too used in pop sosngs bout heart breakin and stuff. but well. and here we go. again im sittin typin here ma thoughts, and i dont even expect anyone to read it, thus it makes the whole thing pointless. cuz well i hav ma thoughts in ma head, and ma head is always with me.
p.s. seems like bullshit i wrote up there.
but anyway. gotta get the strength and do whatever im spsd to do. and i gotta do loads of stuff. many small things that turn up to be very important small things. like a thousand of those important small things. and they all mixed together make a huuuuuuuggggeeee ball of important stuff. and also, mixed together they cause panick and more lazyness. thats how i end up doin nuthin. pisses me off a bit. but well. i got only me to help in certain things, even tho i cud get sum elp from other ppl, nobody will do the exact thing i wanna do or i must do or whatever.
so... yea. everybody loves holidays, dont they? but after them u feel to pressured. well thats no good.

omg.... i think i cant actually hav friends, too tuff towards em. but at the same time i can easily get new, if i wish. and there is attention paid to me. what ppl see in me?

they knew each other for some days
she liked him, he had a girl
she tried to find some wayz
to get him in her world
they were talkin, laughin, she thought he was her prince
even tho she knew she is not his princess

she alwayz got so sad if he said sum kinda truth bout her
but still she gave him all her feelings
at the same time she was cryin, she didn even know what for
he knew it was a game
the reality she tryed t' ignore

she told him that she felt bad
she said it was bcz of him
she took it seroius but still it was a game
he said tha she was sick

one day, they met again
she got this happy spirit
she thought everything was not the same
but he just tryed to sorry for her pain

she ran away, even tho he hugged her
she cudn keep her tears inside
she ran away, blamin herself for this all
while he was aksin why

she started hatin him
she thought it was the end of life
she didn wanna get some help
she wanted to hav some cry

she just locked herself in her lil world
where everything takes the wrong place
she imagined that she didn hav support
she got it... she didn notice... to much of tears all around her

p.s. not about me