IRC-Galleria

I'm falling for you
I know I'm not supposed to be
You asked what was on my mind
Here's what I was thinking

I wanted you to touch me
Like you had once before
I wished for you to hold me
Just to keep me warm

Your lips upon mine
The kiss I so want
More than anything else
In hopes it isn't the final time

When you caressed my arms
my heart screamed for more
The feel of your hand in mine
Made me feel like I finally matter

Now you know how I feel
And why I act the way I do
But now that I told you this
I fear I'll never hear from you again

Were you thinking the same thing?
Do you feel the same way?
I know these feelings are forbidden
But what I feel is real

I was before all the time complaining how I don`t have luck. Now my time has come! Yeepee! Starting from family issues, friends, and of course love. I thought that I was born without luck, that I will never ever be lucky like some other people. But it seems that I was wrong. It`s just that it comes the time, when everything becomes a diversion of minds. To be honest, I was so suprised when everyone around me was feeling horrible and sad, and I was finally happy. I hate to see people sad, and it`s not a very best feeling when you finally reach some point of happiness and everyone else turns sad, angry and depressed. Very odd. Of course not all people, but pretty much people who are close to me. I wish that everyone would be happy, without any problems and falling`s. It would be so much easier if whole world was bisexual :D would say one of my friends. Everyone could love everyone, everyone would be happy, and happy ever after. Fuck, I am starting to talk shit... XD Anyway, life is what you make it, says on one of those cups in Oppilaskuntahuone :D

Just another day in school... Sitting in the computer room, and wasting time. Nothing to do, no money, no new host-family, nothing. Just, boring. But as time passes by, it`s going to be better. What the hell, I was, and always will be a fucking positive one :D I just passed with my eyes threw the IRC page, and I noticed my age. 17.54. There is still less than 6 months left until I will be, sort of, free. But still it sucks that I am not going to be in this awesome place when I turn 18. But this way, or another, I will definitely come and visit Kaustinen, and my friends. They totally turned my world upside down, and I will never forget them.

I hope my life is going to be awesome from now on... I am happy as a child! :D