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How I wish I could surrender my soul;
Shed the clothes that become my skin;
See the liar that burns within my needing.
How I wish I'd chosen darkness from cold.
How I wish I had screamed out loud,
Instead I've found no meaning.

I guess it's time I run far, far away; find comfort in pain,
All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble.
Hides my true shape, like Dorian Gray.
I've heard what they say, but I'm not here for trouble.
It's more than just words: it's just tears and rain.

How I wish I could walk through the doors of my mind;
Hold memory close at hand,
Help me understand the years.
How I wish I could choose between Heaven and Hell.
How I wish I would save my soul.
I'm so cold from fear.

I guess it's time I run far, far away; find comfort in pain,
All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble.
Hides my true shape, like Dorian Gray.
I've heard what they say, but I'm not here for trouble.
Far, far away; find comfort in pain.
All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble.
It's more than just words: it's just tears and rain.

Tears and Rain.

Tears and Rain.

Far, far away; find comfort in pain,
All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble.
It's more than just words: it's just tears and rain.

Söin tänään japanilaisen karkin. Kuulostaa erittäin säälittävältä, ja sitähän se onkin. Mutta minun mielestäni se oli oikeasti hieno kokemus. Etenkin kun japsi-karkki oli Japanista matkannut japanilaisen miehen mukana Chileen, jossa mies antoi karkin kollegalleen ihan muuten vain. Se kollega sattui olemaan isäni, joten hän kuljetti kokonaiset kaksi japsi-karkkia Chilestä kotiin. Toisen söi isoveli ja toisen söin minä. Että tällaista paskaa tänään. Hei kello on melkein yksitoista, ei tähän aikaan enää irtoa mitään älykästä settiä. Sori vaan.

This world will never be
What I expected
And if I don't belong
Who would have guessed it
I will not leave alone
Everything that I own
To make you feel like it's not too late
It's never too late

Even if I say
It'll be alright
Still I hear you say
You want to end your life
Now and again we try
To just stay alive
Maybe we'll turn it around
'Cause it's not too late
It's never too late

No one will ever see
This side reflected
And if there's something wrong
Who would have guessed it
And I have left alone
Everything that I own
To make you feel like
It's not too late
It's never too late

Even if I say
It'll be alright
Still I hear you say
You want to end your life
Now and again we try
To just stay alive
Maybe we'll turn it around
'Cause it's not too late
It's never too late

The world we knew
Won't come back
The time we've lost
Can't get back
The life we had
Won't be ours again

This world will never be
What I expected
And if I don't belong

Even if I say
It'll be alright
Still I hear you say
You want to end your life
Now and again we try
To just stay alive
Maybe we'll turn it around
'Cause it's not too late
It's never too late
Maybe we'll turn it around
'Cause it's not too late
It's never too late (It's never too late)
It's not too late
It's never too late

I have to block out thoughts of you so I donÂ’t lose my head
They crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed
Dropping little reels of tape to remind me that IÂ’m alone
Playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home
There's a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain
An ounce of peace is all I want for you. Will you never call again?
And will you never say that you loved me just to put it in my face?
And will you never try to reach me? It is I that wanted space

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didnÂ’t do for you

Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see whatÂ’s good for you

IÂ’m sober now for 3 whole months itÂ’s one accomplishment that you helped me with
The one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing I wonÂ’t touch again
In my sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night
While I was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight
You never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicidal hate
You made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take
So IÂ’ll drive so fucking far away that I never cross your mind
And do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didnÂ’t do for you

Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see whatÂ’s good for you

And with a sad heart I say bye to you and wave
Kicking shadows on the street for every mistake that I had made
And like a baby boy I never was a man
Until I saw your blue eyes cry and I held your face in my hand
And then I fell down yelling “Make it go away!”
Just make a smile come back and shine just like it used to be
And then she whispered “How can you do this to me?”

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didnÂ’t do for you

Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see whatÂ’s good for you
For you
For you
For you

Ei, en tahdo tulla kotiin
En voi vaikka tahtoisin
Oon yksin mieluummin, kuin palaan sinne helvettiin
Vain ajatuksissani pääsen irroittautumaan
Ilman sitä vapautta tuhoisit mut kokonaan. Kokonaan!

Kuka sinä olet minulle kertomaan
mitä saisin tehdä ja mitä en
Kahleesi puristaa
Kuka minä olen sinulle vastaamaan
kun oma elämäs on pelkkää harhaa
Valheesi satuttaa
sun on pakko irroittaa!

Ei, en puhu kellekkään
paitsi ehkä itselleni
koska tahdon ymmärtää
Miks vain tahdot selittää
että kaikki on taas hyvin
vaikka kuulen äänestäs
ettet tajuu vieläkään
et vieläkään!

Kuka sinä olet minulle kertomaan
mitä saisin tehdä ja mitä en
Kahleesi puristaa
Kuka minä olen sinulle vastaamaan
kun oma elämäsi on pelkkää harhaa
Valheesi satuttaa
sun on pakko irroittaa!

Kuka sinä olet minulle kertomaan
mitä saisin tehdä ja mitä en
Kahleesi puristaa
Kuka minä olen sinulle vastaamaan
kun oma elämäsi on pelkkää harhaa
Valheesi satuttaa
sun on pakko, pakko irroittaa! Irroittaa! Irroittaa! Irroittaa!

Let me know that I've done wrong
When I've known this all along
I go around a time or two
Just to waste my time with you

Tell me all that you've thrown away
Find out games you don't wanna play
You are the only one that needs to know

I'll keep you my dirty little secret
(Dirty little secret)
Don't tell anyone or you'll be just another regret
(Just another regret, hope that you can keep it)
My dirty little secret

Who has to know
When we live such fragile lives
It's the best way we survive
I go around a time or two
Just to waste my time with you

Tell me all that you've thrown away
Find out games you don't wanna play
You are the only one that needs to know

I'll keep you my dirty little secret
(Dirty little secret)
Don't tell anyone or you'll be just another regret
(Just another regret, hope that you can keep it)
My dirty little secret

Who has to know
The way she feels inside (inside)
Those thoughts I can't deny (deny)
These sleeping thoughts won't lie (won't lie)
And all I've tried to hide
It's eating me apart
Trace this life out

I'll keep you my dirty little secret
(Dirty little secret)
Don't tell anyone or you'll be just another regret
(Just another regret)

I'll keep you my dirty little secret
(Dirty little secret)
Don't tell anyone or you'll be just another regret
(Just another regret, hope that you can keep it)
My dirty little secret
Dirty little secret
Dirty little secret

Who has to know
Who has to know

My parents donÂ’t get me, you know?
They think IÂ’m gay because they saw me kiss a guy ,well, a couple of guys.
But I mean, it's the 2000's, canÂ’t two, or four dudes make out with each other without being gay?
I mean chicks dig that kind of thing anyways.

~said by emo guy~ x)

IF I WERE GAY ;D

Here we are
Dear old friends
You and I drunk again
laughs have been had
tears have been shed
maybe the whisky has gone to my head
but if I were gay
I would give you my heart
and if I were gay
you'd be my work of art
and if I were gay
we would swim in romance
but I'm not gay
so get your hand out of my pants

its not that I dont care
I do
I just dont see myself in you
another time another scene
I'd be right behind you if you know what I mean
coz if I were gay
I would give soul
and if I were gay
I would give you my whole... being
and if I were gay
we would tear down the walls
But I'm Not gay
so wont you stop cupping my ba... hand


we've never hugged
we've never kissed
I've never been intimate with your fist
you have opened brand new doors
get over here and drop ... your ... drawers

SPRING NICHT


Über den Dächern,
ist es so kalt,
und so still.
Ich schweig Deinen Namen,
weil Du ihn jetzt,
nicht hören willst.
Der Abgrund der Stadt,
verschlingt jede Träne die fällt.
Da unten ist nichts mehr,
was Dich hier oben noch hällt.

Ich schrei in die Nacht für Dich,
lass mich nicht im Stich,
Spring nicht.
Die lichter fangen Dich nicht,
sie betrügen Dich.
Spring nicht.
Erinner Dich,
an Dich und mich.
Die Welt da unten zählt nicht,
Bitte spring nicht.

In Deinen Augen,
scheint alles sinnlos und leer.
Der Schnee fällt einsam,
Du spürst ihn schon lange nicht mehr.
Irgendwo da draussen,
bist Du verloren gegangen.
Du träumst von dem Ende,
um nochmal von vorn anzufangen.

Ich schrei in die Nacht für Dich,
lass mich nicht im Stich
Spring nicht.
Die lichter fangen Dich nicht,
sie betrügen Dich.
Spring nicht.
Erinner Dich,
an Dich und mich.
Die Welt da unten zählt nicht,
Bitte spring nicht.

Ich weiss nicht wie lang,
Ich Dich halten kann.
Ich weiss nicht wie lang.

Nimm meine Hand,
wir fangen nochmal an.
Spring nicht.

Ich schrei in die Nacht für Dich,
lass mich nicht im Stich
Spring nicht.
Die lichter fangen Dich nicht,
sie betrügen Dich.
Spring nicht.
Erinner Dich,
an Dich und mich.
Die Welt da unten zählt nicht,
Bitte spring nicht.

Spring nicht.
Und hält Dich das auch nicht zurück.
Dann spring ich für Dich.

If everyone cared and nobody cried
If everyone loved and nobody lied
If everyone shared and swallowed their pride
Then we'd see the day when nobody died