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Just realized that. Haha I'm so blonde sometimes! Haha 2 days where just like a haze. HAHA Guess that's just what happens to me on the weekends. I become a ghost of myself. This is me! A shade of something bigger. Not one whole person. Just parts of one.
Just as a broken heart can be healed. It just takes the right amount of plasters. But what if some pieces disappear? Can the plastered heart be counted as one whole? Or is it forever broken?
Well I just feel like I'm pieces in the weekends and then sometimes I get some plasters on the weeks. Nobody actually knows how many is needed though. Nobody has enough. And so I'm broken. Or am I? Well, Peter knows. Almost. He's plasterbox is never empty. But he hasn't found those last pieces. Even though he's trying. I don't know if anyone will find them. Maybe they went with Brorsan. Maybe they where meant to.
Well, enough philosophy for one sunday night.

Need to go get some alcohole or something to numb of my mind. HAHAHA! Create some new pieces!

Hmm hahaha. Pretty big this time. Mommy was angry. 5000kr (500E) from when I got home... Haha that's like so much. I'd phoned finland 19hours in that time. HAHAHA That's probably some kind of record. I mean... HAHAHA 19 hours in 18 days. HAHAHAHA I rocks sometimes.

Well need to go now. Have more important things to do!

Haha well I kinda posted this a couple of days ago... It's from my show and well it's basically me performing a song by tokio hotel that I've mixed up a bit! Hahaha It's way better than the original that's for fucking sure... Check it out and tell me what you think!



http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MC40uLvTVLk

waiting wishing you believed in supperstition than maybe you'd see the signs...
The lord knows that I'm not you and if I was I wouldn't be so cruel cause waiting on love ain't so easy to do...

So I got to school half an hour to early this morning. I'm really pissed. DAMN. I hate this fucking thing. I leave home like just in time and I've been stressing all morning thinking I was in a hurry and then I fucking get here half an hour too early! What's that? Shit.
Well anyway I guess it means I can study more for the test or something. Jippie...
Hahaha well
The show is tonight so wish me luck. I mean shit... I need it!
Kisses

Damn it. Dad's boozed up and well nothing is functioning because of it. I have a migrane and I don't fucking know if I need to go somewhere else tonight or if I can sleep here. It would be so much better if he just could stop the fucking drinking. I mean it's the only time things like this happen! And yesterdays talk. About us beeing so close and shit. NO FUCKING SHIT where not close when he pulls things like this. I fucking forgot my phone! Is that such a freaking crime?

I am not perfect, and I don't claim to be
and if that's what you wanted
Well then I'm so sorry!

How about a better version of the way that I am
The way I look the way I speak
How about a better version of me?!?!?!?!

Okay shit shit shit! Gonna meet Johan in less than 3 hours... What the hell am I gonna say? I mean I'm not one to start with all those frases of "it's not you it's me" and fucked up things like that. How do you break up with someone without hurting their feelings? Well if I could answer that I wouldn't be in this mess for the first time! How the hell am I gonna do? I know it's better to dump the guy now so that it wont turn into something even more fucked up but at the same time I don't wanna break up with anyone. The best thing would totaly be him dumping me. That would just be such a relief for me! I mean I don't care about getting dumped so why can't he just dump me? DUMP ME DUMP ME DUMP ME!

Hmmm I need to go figure this out. Stop stressing about it. It's better that it happens now than later!

Oh my god I'm so sick and tired of my family. Why the hell do I always have to be happy for this family to function? I have the fucking right to be angry and mad some fucking time! Damn damn damn... I hate it. They are all yelling their lugns out upstairs and well I don't even give a shit that it's my "fault". Can't anyone behave like an adult in this household? Can't someone take my part of happy go lucky little Minnie? DAMN

Well the alarm didn't go off this morning so I've been pissed all day. I'm not good with 24/7 in this house. I need to get out at least a couple of hours a day to keep from going insane. Well too bad I already am I guess! I just have the constant feeling that I'm running this family and that nobody even wants to try to help me. Well fuck it. FUCK IT ALL!

Thinking about life right now. Not so deeply as is sounds though. Haha I'm all messed up this time of the day. Especially since I havn't slept my eight hours! Damn I'm soooo tired. I should probably go to sleep but a sertain SOMEBODY is keeping me up... Well back to my thinking. Ehm no better up. Let's not go into that too close. It'll just be some random nonsense coming out of my mouth (or fingers right now) just like eee this is. HAHAHA

Okay but I do have something to tell you all... Exactly one week till my performance and shit I'm stressed out. Everything in school plus that stupid thing is not working out so good. I should've done my homework now too but I just didn't so I'm gonna be in a lot of trouble tomorrow! Well anyway. Too tired to think about it so kisses to you all. I'm going to sleep

ZZZZZZZ

Hey babe!
Just got home from the first day of school after my visit to Finland... Damn I fucking hate Sweden so bad. DAMN DAMN DAMN! Well not to be so fucking emo I need to think about something else...
Well one thing that I'm really looking forward to is the show that I'm having in less than two weeks. It's gonna be so awsome and I'm gonna totaly rock everybodies socks of! Damn I'm too good sometimes! HAHAHAHA LOL

Well gonna go find something interesting to do now! Kisses to all of you reading...
// MINNIE

Ps. Damn this site is sooooooo hard for me to understand!