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My hate was folded inside you palm, now you've opened the palm.

The hate begins to fill my mind

My mind becomes unclear

My veins begin to pump bloodlust

Which was yours to keep sealed

Now the seal is broken

My bloodlust rises

soon I lose myself

Soon I no longer am who I am

I begin to fade away

And as I fade

I begin to lose my humanity

My thoughts no longer have a meaning

I become violent

I no longer have a target for my feelings

And now the feelings turn to hate

The hate blinds my mind

Hate against everything

We promised eachother to protect one from everything

Now my protection against myself has flawed

It's not yet broken

But when it does, I will fade away

And I will not fade away alone

I take someone with me

The love I had for you, now turns into what fill my vains

Hate...

Now my veins begin ill with hate

The hate grows

I just hope you make the right decision and save me

If not, I will fade away

I become a ghost among others

Ghost of my old self

A Ghost...

I become feelingless...

numb...

A ghost with grudge agains everyone I used to love

All my friends become foes

All my enemies will become even worse

Now I'm vulnerable

I no longer have the solid shield I used to have

Now, without my shield, nothing to seal my hate away

I become dangerous, for myself and others

Only choise is to unfold my hate a shed it to my targets

or seal myself away, in a coffin

six feets under the ground

Laying down there

Peacefully

please, do not worry that, you'll forget me soon, as you've already done

Yeah, you'll forget me.

I believe you'd like to say you won't forget.

But by the recent event I doubt I would trust you.

or maybe I should trust you.

Maybe I'm just underestimating you

Maybe you're not making the mistake

Well, it wouldn't be a mistake, everyone has their own minds

Maybe I just consider it as mistake

Maybe it's the right choise for you

Maybe that is what makes you happy

I just can't fullfill you

Maybe it someone else

Eventho I would like to let my anger float out

Target to the possible someone else

But I will not

Why?

Because at the moment, you are the most important thing in my life

And will be, for a long while

And I would never, EVER make you sad

I would take my life rather than make you sad

All the time you consider

To be the seal around me

It's getting weaker, my hate begins to float out.

Even now, the demons inside me are being setting lose

I actualy feel good

I feel good to be set loose

It's just...

It's not humane, it's not unhuman

It's something much more greater

Cannot be describet with words

Words, so... weak things...

Which is why I was about to show my feelings in solid way

With rings

Which you already have in your hand.

Make you mind.

Return them both in one piece, and forget me.

Let my demons take over, let me become a maniac.

Or return just half of it and live with me

Seal my demons inside with the half of the ring, help me live as myself.

Make the call. Both are right. Both are good. For one of us, but still.