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Have you ever tought, what would it be if you could unmeet a person?
I mean, to live your life from when you met the person, to this day again.
Would it be better?
I could almost promise my life would.

I would probably live a laid back life with my friends without a hint about this person.
Probably found myself a nice girl who I could trust and stuff, who kept her promises.

Someone who also sees me, not just my money.

I can almost say this one just saw my wallet...
Or so it feels.
I could be wrong.
But I doupt.

The way the person acted, the way she spoke, even to me.
I could promise it was my wallet...

Or did she really care?
How can I know for sure?

Well, I can't.
Too bad.

Is it second or thrid time now, as she causes a disapointment for me?
Should this be the last time?

Eventho she is someone I could live my life with.

Maybe I just should cut it...?

I would break my promise by it...

But still... is this shit worth of a promise?

I've always kept my promises, the big ones I mean.

But this one, is it worth it?

It feels like it would be

But still, it feels to be so... vain.

But is it?

I can not know it before I try

To keep a promise, and see the result?

Either disapoint a begin another spiral of depression?

or just cut it.

Live my own life as a maniac?

Which I am.

or start a new life, in another city.

Find job, take a loan, leave everything behind me.

My friends, those ho were important for me, and those I couldn't give a shit for?

All sound promising, but new life, would be a dream.

Clean paper, no so called friends around me.

No painful memories to be reminded daily.

New tablet for my life.

New people to meet.

Maybe this is my destiny, to change place.

I would leave alot of dear memories behind.

But some so painful

Getting rid of few painfuls is wrth of bunch of good ones

If you were me, you'd understand.

The people I would die for, or once would.

Now their just painful memories haunting my mind.

If I moved, I'd forget them soon

I'd finaly sleep well.

Sleep...

What a wonderful thing...

Yeah it would be but like I would sleep for a while...

Sometimes I just feel like getting wasted, probably killing everything I see,

too bad we got no death sentences around here...

death.. oh that peace would be wonderful

But who would do my job?

Maybe moving would be the right answer.

Death is for weak.

Not really, some really don't have other answers.

Well they do, but they can't chose other.

It wouldn't be worth it

Think of the people who they leave behind

Their family, friends, everything.

The fuck am I saying? I just mentioned about killing bunch of people...?

BAH! Bullshit, death to those who run their mouth at me inside few days

not in the mood...

I'd really like to escape the reality once in a while

But then again, the drop back to the reality would be too much

But as I mentioned, it would be a dream to unmeet someone.

To think how my life would've changed.

To good?

Or to bad?

No one never knows...

Maybe I just feel like it would change into better?

Maybe I'm just too fucking angry to think clear?

Maybe I just should relax, sit back, take a few punches at the brick wall

That sounds like a plan.

Beat it till I have no knuckles left to beat it with.

I hunger for blood now...

Not my own, someone elses... the taste...

Call me a weirdo, like I gave a shit about your opinion.

Really, you can say anything, I might beat the shit out of you

Just cause I goet a reason to

But do I give a shit?

Nope.

I might be different from others.

Well, I am.

But for your own sake

Don't mention it.