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Mirrorized thoughts
Mind full of flaws
Sanity reincarnated
Deep inside my heart
Between the void and hate
Tore it all apart
To make room for insanity
Redemption and revenge
Hand in hand they dwell
Inside my soul's shell
Love was vanity
That couldn't fill the void
Yet it lingers there still
Like of it's own will
Colors my blood red
And fills my empty veins
Someday these stains
Won't be monochromatic
A chance is what it needs
To forever my heart feed
Trash the lies and deceit
Take away the agony
Leave me joy, no misery
Let the blackened sun shine
Upon the body and mind of mine

Pour it, pour it down the drain
Watch it, watch it slowly fade
Take it, take it all away
Leave me, leave me with nothing to say
Show me, show me what you got
Plan, plan the cruel plot
Jump, jump down the drain
Make yourself slowly fade
Memories, memories flowing away
Nothing, nothing you say
Everything, everything you play
Shone, shone like a star
That is what you are
Seize, seize the moment
Relive, relive the torment
Feel it, feel it slip away
Life, life dripping down the drain
Crimson, crimson shaded rain
Void, void of happiness
Full, full of emptiness
Sanity, sanity slipped your mind
Insanity, insanity is what I find
So hard to forgive and forget
Cut, cut it deeper in me
Allow, allow yourself to be
What, what you really are
Crippled, crippled from all the scars
You, you are the brightest star of them all
Light, light in the heart of mine
Darkness, darkness in the mind of thine
The blossoming flower in the soil of my void soul

I feel so stranded
My plan has just landed
This is where I will leave all behind
Where the destruction will end
This is the land where I will find
Colors and shades that will blend
Emptied my heart and my soul
Filled the void with new soil
Planting my seed and waiting for rain
And the bright light of a star to come
And cleanse away this old pain
When I feel it grow I will know
That this must be it
The thing I've so long longed for
The one to reap my fruit of emptiness
And with it bring me happiness

The memories of that night still haunt me
Wanting, craving more I cannot sleep
Wanted the night to forever be ours to keep
In my dreams we're still there in the same place
Piercing my heart, tearing my every sense apart
With the sharpest of lies and your sweet eyes
My mind twists the truth and makes me live in my dream
Where you and I can be eternally
Oh how I wish we could reunite, just like that night
In my head I feel the lies become reality
In my heart I feel nothing but longing for more
In my arm I feel the cold steel, cutting, slashing
Crimson drops form the pool in which my life will run free
As death takes over and the light approaches
I feel the joy of leaving this reality
And entering my dream for infinity

For every second I'm around you
I just wanna slit my wrist and fade away
In a crimson stream of sweet blood
Just float on it and slowly sink into the abyss
Be greeted by the fires of Hell
That will caress my soul so well
Wanna seize the moment my heart stops beating
To forever feel the pain and see the light
Nothing more than pure agony can make me whole
Though the worms feed on my corpse
I feel more alive than ever
The eternal sleep of my body has freed my soul
Though chained to this fire forever I feel so free
The excrusiating pain filled the void inside my heart
And just now I truly feel it beating

I love hurting people in every way
Kicking and screaming day after day
The blood gushes out of your veins
Like the sea with its waves
It covers the emptiness
Fills the voids of happiness
Some find this obscene
While others find it beautiful
A defect in your genes
It fills the void like a machine
Pouring the hatred down the walls
The water it flows and the blood it glows
Red and blue in a nice hue
A tint of black, the hatred in your heart
The one I tore apart and left behind
Now it's all so clear
All the misery and agony
Stop and rewind, watch your mistakes pass by
Life and death was once one
Now divided in two, the beginning and the end
Searching for one equals two
You will find the one when both pieces unite

I've come to the point where there is no return
The only path that was there lead me astray
Built my shelter with anger as walls
But I'm to weak to take this fall
Even though Icaros himself lend me his wings
I couldn't find my haven in this mist
As the raven circles above me I know my time has come
I stop and wait for the final drop of rain to fall on my skin
And as Hades' gates are open wide I know I cannot win
Now as a ghost among the living I reign over the haunting wind
The screams of torment and agony howling with the breeze
Keeps me on the road to salvation, to find my final rest
The final seed has been planted at the foot of Heaven
And as God himself appears to bless my fruit of damnation
I know this was not the final drop of rain on my skin
This was not my end, I had not failed
Filled with hope of carnage and mayhem to prosper
I take these steps over the mountains
Across the seas, through the fields and in the sky above
As a shadow in the night I'm always there though hidden from your eye
Leaving destruction and oblivion behind my back
Step by step more and more shall fall until the screams in my head stop
Only then will I find rest among the mortal, 'til the you suffer the wrath
Of the supreme messenger of the true God

The pain is insane as I watch you walk alone in the rain
With tears running down your pale cheeks and you're feeling so weak
I know it's my fault I should be locked inside a vault for doing this to you
I shouldn't have put on a mask I knew was forbidden, but my fear had to stay hidden
I apologize for the void in my heart that tore us apart
The hole where my soul used to be before you and I became we
This decision is for the best so we can go on and see the rest
At this age we should be free and not chained by misery
I hope you understand and can let go of my hand
I will still be here in hours of need but I feel like you and I weren't meant to be
You should have it so much better, float in the air like a feather
I'm sorry if I broke your heart, at least you now we'll get a new start
All the pain you had to endure because I was feeling insecure
All the time you spent on me I used up so carelessly
As a final wish I will now ask you this:
Can you forgive me and my stupidity, and let me watch over you like a raven with my embrace as your haven?

If I was a singer I would sing you a song
About how good life was before people grew old
If I was a servant I would serve all day long
For I am loyal and trustworthy and require no gold
If I was a writer I would write you a book
About romance and drama and a police and a crook
If I was a soldier I would protect you from evil
For that is my duty and you are my pride
If I was a dancer I would ask you to dance
And swing and sweat and all night just prance
If I was a monster I would hide from the light
Just move in the night and spread much fright
If I was a cook I would make you a dish
With red meat and garlic and no nasty fish
If I was a blacksmith I would forge you a sword
With a sharp edge and a sheath for you to employ
If I was a doctor I would stitch you up
And heal you and tell you to drink something warm
If I was lover I would break your heart
Since I have no feelings I would tear you apart

In a world so hollow we do not know what to follow
Empty promises and lies are fed to all that are kind
Judging me and all I do, now I'm done with you
Once I gave my hand, it was yours to take
Now in to a fist it turned, ready for you to break
I can feel the fire burning in my eyes and my heart
Burning up deceitful lies and tearing them apart
Just turn and walk away if you got nothing to say
Nothing you say makes a difference anyway
Stabbed in the back but I won't fall
I'll rise again and take on you all
See this ain't the end, I'm not giving up
I won't sleep until I got you on your knees begging me please
Wanna see the agony when you crawl on the ground
Wanna see you cry for help like a fucking hound
I know this is wrong but I can't help it
You brought this on yourselves so this is my revenge
Hope you feel sorry when you're lying in your grave
And wish you wouldn't have been so brave
See this monster ain't nothing you wanna taunt
It will get you by any means, it will haunt
Like a ghost in a house, a snake in the grass
It will get to you, it will run you past
So better try begging for forgiveness
Or be prepared to get oppressed