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Päätin joskus tuossa kesällä, että en enää ikinä aio katua sitä että en mene puhumaan tai kysy mahdollisuutta tutustua mielenkiintoisen oloiseen ihmiseen (naiseen, kai lähinnä.) Olen menneisyydessä miettinyt ja joutunut katumaan ihan liikaa sitä, että mitä olisi voinut olla. Kallessakin kun aikoinaan ramppasi, oli melkein viikonlopusta toiseen samat sinkkutytöt siellä, varsinkin yksi nätti punatukkainen tyttö joka vaikutti tosi kiinnostavalta, mutta ei koskaan ollut pokkaa mennä puhumaan, ja olin aina niin kännissä etten halunnut antaa itsestäni känni-ääliön vaikutelmaa. Sitten joskus myöhemmin näin samaisen tytön vielä kaupungilla. Se on kaduttanut pitkään.

Ei enää.

Vaikka tulisi kuinka pahasti takaisin sanomista, niin ne on vaan sanoja, jos en kelpaa sellaisena kuin olen, niin sitten ihminen ei olisikaan minua ansainnut, eikä asiasta koskaan olisi mitään voinut tullakkaan, onpahan sitten ainakin varmuus siitä.

Jee! Tuli oltua valppaana kerrankin ja tasan 08:59 lippupalvelun vepissä klikkaamassa heti kun aukesi. Tuloksena parhaasta katsomosta ekalta riviltä paikka. 2-3 minuuttia myöhemmin myivät jo 6 pykälää "huonompia" katsomoita, joten taisi kerrankin käydä flaksi. Ihme kyllä ticketbastard ei ole vielä täysin korruptoinut Suomen lippupalveun veppipalvelua siten kun maailmalla, että kaikki parhaat paikat ennakkomyydään jo pois etukäteen scalppereille ja vepistä saa vain jämäpaskaa kalliilla, jos mitään.

3.3.2008 Jimmyn rummutusta livenä. Can't wait.

"This has been a novel about some people who were punished entirely too much for what they did. They wanted to have a good time, but they were like children playing in the street; they could see one after another of them being killed ... but they continued to play anyhow ... but it was for such a terrible brief time, and then the punishment was beyond belief: even when we could see it, we could not believe it."

-Philip K. Dick, A Scanner Darkly


"And all my friends died for nothin' I suppose... " -Spiritualized / Cop Shoot Cop

William S. Burroughs once remarked, “As the world moves more toward totalitarianism, drugs are an excellent way of controlling the masses. If they are addicted, they’ll become good slaves, and are compliant to your will. You own their minds, and you have their money. But if you let too many get hooked on illegal drugs, then they turn covert –and we have a nation of outlaws.”



In the 13th chapter of the epistle of St. Paul [1 Corinthians 13], we find a verse:

“For now we see through a glass darkly, but then face to face! Now I know in part, but then shall I know even as also I am known.”



I guess another way of stating this is that at present, we just do not see clearly –but at the end of time, our time or time itself, we shall do so. A wonderful projection, and a frightening one; but who wants to wait?



Philip K. Dick writing in his gargantuan journal called EXEGESIS presented his thoughts in “tractates”. He wrote, “Christ will not merely rule the universe –he will also be the universe. All that remains is for the second reincarnation [or possibly the 22nd depending on what metaphysical text one reads] to occur, for the veil to drop, and have God’s wisdom appear openly here –that all may be aware of it and acknowledge it.”

Kesän kuumin... 28.7C sisällä, alkukesästä oli 26 jotain ja luulin että se oli sikakuuma... Mut eii. Tuuletusräppänöistä ei mitään apua. Kylmää suihkua pitää ottaa tunnin välein ettei tikahdu.

Hu0h. Väsyttää.

Tuli käytyä tsekkaamassa NIN ankkarokissa. Saavuin paikalle just sopivasti 5 minuuttia ennen setin alkua, ei tarvinnu odotella. Ja oli todella siisti keikka, paljon siistimpi kuin jäähallissa. Ehkä osittain sen takia että ulkona jaksoi pomppia ja fiilistellä mukanakin paljon paremmin. Hurtin kesken vahingossa alkanut ilotulitus oli huvittava, Trent oli ihan "WTF?", keskeytti biisin ja totesi "Well, this is a first" ja jatkoi sitten kun oltiin katsottu ilotulitus :D

Piristi vähän. Oli siistiä.

"Sometimes I can think I can see right through myself, Sometimes... Sometimes I think I see the lights on the stage - and sometimes I fucking don't!" - Hehehe. Loistavaa huumoria Onlyn lyriikoiden tilalle ku valot vähän pyki.

Mä.

there are things that i said i would never do
there are fears that i can not believe have come true
for my soul is too sick and too little and too late
and myself i have grown too weary to hate

the more i stay in here
the more it's not so clear
the more i stay in here
the more i disappear
as far as i have gone
i knew what side i'm on
but now i'm not so sure
the line begins to blur

is there somebody on top of me?
i don't know, i don't know
isn't anybody stopping me?
i don't know, i don't know
well i'm trying to hold my breath
i don't know, i don't know
just how far down can i go?
i don't know, i don't know

as i lie here and stare
the fabric starts to tear
it's far beyond repair
and i don't really care
as far as i have gone
i knew what side i'm on
but now i'm not so sure
the line begins to blur

Shame on us
Doomed from the start
May God have mercy
On our dirty little hearts

Shame on us
For all we've done
And all we ever were
Just zeros and ones

And he cried mightily with a strong voice, saying, Babylon the great is fallen, is fallen, and is become the habitation of devils, and the hold of every foul spirit, and a cage of every unclean and hateful bird.

> For all nations have drunk of the wine of the wrath of her fornication, and the kings of the
> earth have committed fornication with her, and the merchants of the earth are waxed rich
> through the abundance of her delicacies.

> And I heard another voice from heaven, saying, Come out of her, my people, that ye be not
> partakers of her sins, and that ye receive not of her plagues.

For her sins have reached unto heaven, and God hath remembered her iniquities.

Reward her even as she rewarded you, and double unto her double according to her works: in the cup which she hath filled fill to her double.

How much she hath glorified herself, and lived deliciously, so much torment and sorrow give her: for she saith in her heart, I sit a queen, and am no widow, and shall see no sorrow.

Therefore shall her plagues come in one day, death, and mourning, and famine; and she shall be utterly burned with fire: for strong is the Lord God who judgeth her.

And the kings of the earth, who have committed fornication and lived deliciously with her, shall bewail her, and lament for her, when they shall see the smoke of her burning,

> Standing afar off for the fear of her torment, saying, Alas, alas, that great city Babylon, that
> mighty city! for in one hour is thy judgment come.

And the merchants of the earth shall weep and mourn over her; for no man buyeth their merchandise any more:

The merchandise of gold, and silver, and precious stones, and of pearls, and fine linen, and purple, and silk, and scarlet, and all thyine wood, and all manner vessels of ivory, and all manner vessels of most precious wood, and of brass, and iron, and marble,

And cinnamon, and odours, and ointments, and frankincense, and wine, and oil, and fine flour, and wheat, and beasts, and sheep, and horses, and chariots, and slaves, and souls of men.

And the fruits that thy soul lusted after are departed from thee, and all things which were dainty and goodly are departed from thee, and thou shalt find them no more at all.

The merchants of these things, which were made rich by her, shall stand afar off for the fear of her torment, weeping and wailing,

And saying, Alas, alas, that great city, that was clothed in fine linen, and purple, and scarlet, and decked with gold, and precious stones, and pearls!

For in one hour so great riches is come to nought. And every shipmaster, and all the company in ships, and sailors, and as many as trade by sea, stood afar off,

> And cried when they saw the smoke of her burning, saying, What city is like unto this great
> city!

And they cast dust on their heads, and cried, weeping and wailing, saying, Alas, alas, that great city, wherein were made rich all that had ships in the sea by reason of her costliness! for in one hour is she made desolate.

Rejoice over her, thou heaven, and ye holy apostles and prophets; for God hath avenged you on her.

> And a mighty angel took up a stone like a great millstone, and cast it into the sea, saying,
> Thus with violence shall that great city Babylon be thrown down, and shall be found no more
> at all.

NP: The Smashing Pumpkins: Tarantula

I donÂ’t want to fight
Every single night
Everything I want is in your light.

You and me go there
To places I donÂ’t know to care
The spoils of all I got were left to scrounge.

DonÂ’t let me say this,
but youÂ’re no worse than me,
ItÂ’s crazy.

We all are real, if real ever was, itÂ’s just because
We all feel, feel weÂ’ve had enough,
I’m real, ‘cause someone gave us sound.

I wanna be there when youÂ’re happy
I wanna love you when youÂ’re sad.

CanÂ’t stand the morning rain
Get out and take your place then
CanÂ’t stand the blazing sun
Then close your eyes youÂ’ll see
The angel die.

I donÂ’t want to be
Anything for these
A million watts of sound canÂ’t compare.

Come along youÂ’ll see the world
The pulse ripples, the crowd unfurls
The current starts to flow and they are on.

Oh itÂ’s a white hot soul they want,
sinful.

YouÂ’re real, if real ever was, itÂ’s just because
We all are real, every living soul
Yes I’m real, ‘cause someone gave us sound.

DonÂ’t break the oath
I want to love you when youÂ’re happy,
DonÂ’t break this oath
I want to be there when youÂ’re sad,
Please bring the pouring rain.

Beyond real, as real as any ghost,
ItÂ’s easy now,
IÂ’m real, in every living soul
God gave us.

CanÂ’t stand the blazing sun
CanÂ’t stand the morning rain
Get out and take your place again.

I donÂ’t want to be alone
I donÂ’t want to be alone
I donÂ’t want to be alone
Alone.

If itÂ’s a white hot soul they want
ItÂ’s a black heart theyÂ’ll get.

SP on takaisin 7 vuoden jälkeen.

Ja samalla myös vahvasti rulettaa vielä Year Zero... "I hope they cannot see, the limitless potential living inside of me, to murder everything..."