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Its snowing... I watch the snow falling from the sky, making its way to the ground, covering everything. At this hour it seems that its grey as the ash after volcanic eruption. I feel so numb, so empty... All I got is my cigarettes and beer cans to comfort me, in this lonely night.
Still watching the snow fall, having a smoke and lying to myself that everything is gonna be alright... Or maybe this is as good as it gets, I dont know. Some things you just cannot get, no matter how you try, no matter what you do. And eventually you will loose everything. Thats my life, with all its glory. Aint life grand.

Miksi minun pilvilinnassani asuu joku muu, enkä minä?

"Who's to know when the time has come around?
Don't want to see you cry...
I know that this is not goodbye."

Kuolemista.

You fuckin' touch me I will rip you apart, I'll reach in and take a bite out of that shit you call a heart!

Hyvää joulua vaan kaikille. Toivottavasti muille se joulu maistuu ja toimii :)

The pain wont just go away, it follows me no matter where I go. I cant hide it, I cant face it. I try to run but its always there.. It forces me to crawl... Forces me down to the ground, to drink all the mud, and dirt, and shit. Untill it slowly fills my heart and soul.. Slowly killing me inside.. Tainted forever..?

"Why did this happen? What went wrong..?" These things I wonder every single day... Same old things still haunts me, and now this... This... Agony and pain. Caused by someone I... I cannot find a word that would describe the feeling for that someone. All confusing and messed up.. All feelings just blurred.. What is happiness.. Joy.. Illusions created by our weak little minds? Are all feelings just..?

I see my self frozen to the ground, in this endless, cold night. Where wolves howl theyr never ending songs and the full moon shines upon everything. There are others... I hear them crying. Or maybe it is just the wind making its way through the trees, tearing the wakest branches and throwing them into the air like seperated limbs... I see something far away, on the other side of the frozen river. It watches me, waits for me.. I can feel its presence, I can hear its voice inside my head, whispering... It wants me. How long can I resist..?

Nyt kyä kelpaa jo galsuttaa!

What the hell am I doing?
Is there anyone left in my life?
What the fuck was I thinking?
Anybody want to tell me Im fine?
Where the hell am I going?
Do I even need a reason to hide?
I am only betrayed.
I am only conditioned to die!

tämä on fiilis ._.