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Thanks Asanti.
your my bright sunshinny day.
this songs deticated to you <3<3<3<3<3
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xzGV9Bl6CGg&feature=related

i need to get out more... i'm starting to get lonely.
i need to go and meet people.
i need to start meeting men.
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i found this meme... i thought it was intresting.

True Colours.

show me your true colours. everyone tries to hide them so let them out baby!

whats your name?-
Taryn

do you know what your name means?- Celtic for high mountain

do you think its true to you?-
yeah, i like to think i'm strong an unmoveable, but at the same time, i'm not always

what do you like in a person?-
loyalty and laughter

why?-
well... i guess.. i dont like the idea of being betrayed in anyway. i have had so many peopel betray me in the past that its hard to know who i can trust with my feelings so, yeah. and if some one cant laugh at soemhting, then they are not human and not worth knowing because they tend to angst about everything and i find peoples emotions catchy, if they are depressed so am i, if they are happy, and so am i, so.. i need happy people to be happy.

what do you like in the gender you like?-
Love and honesty

why?-
because... whats he point in being with some one if they dont love you! your feelings just bundle up until you exsplode in an emotioal car crash. i cant stand people lying to me, it hurts me like nothing i know.

what really pisses you off?-
Being lied to

why?-
because, it means they dont respect me, or think i'm strong enough to handle the true. they think they are protecting me or them selves, but its so much worse when i find out becaue then i hate you so passionatly for keeping it from me!

is there somehting pissing you off now?-
yes..

what happened?-
just... boys. their so stupid! i dont wnat to say any more.

Is there something you really want?-
yeah 2 things

can you have it?-
no and maybe

How come?-
becuase... its ot mine to take. Never will be. and i dont know about the second one because Finland is makig it so hard and stressfull

what do you fear the most?-
that people will leave me or forget me, or... that i cant be loved

Is that so... is there a reason?-
every one leaves me sooner or later... or .. i dont kow.. i have always had to play second best to everything, i have never been the best or that great at anything. i'm not the best friend, people leave me because i cant help them or becaue i cant understand their feelings in comparisen to mine. i hate being ignored.. its as good a being forgotten. when i'm ignored for seconds i fret... i hate to think what it would be like to be completely forgotten. Every relationship i have ever had ens in tears... its alwqays because of somehting i have done.. oh but one case when he ran off with a boy! i cant keep a relationship together... i'm so needy and jelouas

Right now... what i on your mind?-
how am i going to get out of this mess...visa wise! i really wnat my visa i dont wanna go back.. oh i hope i get this job its my last chance!!

Who hurts you the most?-
people i love, who.... dont think. like my father. he makes me feel so bad about who i am its not funny. like some of my friends, who dont think about what they say to me or do.

Who makes you feel the best?-
when some one shows me how they feel. saying it can be a lie.. actions speak louder then words. when a friend is there for me, when some one shows they love me, when i know your there... i feel on top of the world

what kind trait in you is the worst?-
I'm too competitive and jelouas

Why are they bad?-
because. i cant stand losing. in any form! i get so competitive about things that i will hurt myself and others to win. weather it be a sport, a video game, to the door, eating, walking, getting some ones attention before some one else. if i dont win i take it so personaliy! And i hate it when some one has soemhting i want, or along those lines, i grow so bitter its not funny.

Whats your best?-
I'm passionate and commited

why are they your best?-
Because... when i set about do somehting, i do it. when i say i will, i will! If some one needs my help and i agree, i'll fix what ever it is that needs fixing. If i want somehting bad enough, i'll work until my bones break to get it. Nothing stands in my way, if it does i know it down. And what ever i do, or what ever i commit to, i'm passionate about, i put my heart and soul into it. however if i dont have any motivation... it'll never happen. i need MOTIVATION BABY!

What do you want to change about yourself if anything?-
the.. the way i look. i know i'm not ugly. but when i look at others i think.. why do i have to have such big hips... why cant i have bigger boobs. why is my belly so jelly! also... i.. want to change how i feel... i wish i didnt feel sometimes.

Can you?-
nope :D

Who or what is going to save you when it all falls apart?-
my prince charming

Who or what is going to make it all fall apart?-
The wicked King

its like a breath of life....
like a weight off your shoulders...
oh it feels so good

i finaly decided on what i am gonna get tattooed on me! i'm gonna do it before the end of the month!
i have always had an obession with things lasting for ever. and now my new passion is finland and the people in it. and i have been humming and haring about what to get and i was always going to get somehting australian, you know... i'm so aussie! but now i realise... i dont wnat to be *aussie aussie aussie oi oi oi* any more, i wanna concret my self to finland, even if i am torn away for ever.
what i am getting tattooed represents all my feelings for the people i love and like, for my nationality, for my passion, for who i am. its perfect!
its so simple and kinda silly, but i feel its really suiting to me! i never wanted anything fancy or like *hooo wow!* just somehting to sum up my emotions on my skin. i'm gonna get it on my back, just below were my neck bends. and no... no stars XD
tiia drew it on there to night and its perfect, its what i want!
i hope the tattoest can get it as perfect as what she did :)

omg... i'm so at peace at the moment. this is rare for me. i have this fear of not having a plan... i hate it when i dont know what i'm doing long term. its why i freaked out when i first went back to australia.
anyway.
i am going to go back to Australia, and once there i will go back to work and study, once i have finish my degree i shall come back here again. i much happier now. you all know i will come back. i should be 21 when i come home agian. thats not so bad is it... my corse i am gonna do takes 24 months, or i can cut it short and it would be 9 month. i dont really wanna leave, but i dont have a choice really. i dont wanna go... i feel heart breakingly guilty to leave. i know i think i hurt people but fucking around with this, but i never wanted to hurt people, but i have to go, but i will be back. but think of it this way.... i have 3 months of plain pure fun! and over 1000e to enjoy! we can have some real fun with that n_n
i love you guys, some more then others
but yep. is my plan now days
that or marry some one XD

its funny... Oulu is just the same way i left it. same people. same things... same issues

i'm in Hongkong! is huge. i have had 3 hours of sleep... for a total of two days of traveling. my plane leaves at 9:30 and its only 4:11... ehhh...
fun
and then 10 hours to helsinki... were... *sniff* i shall get off the plane alone, decide... bus or taxi...and get on the train to Oulu for a further 8 hours... joy.. i'm sure
where i will arive at Oulu and mira shall take me back to her apartmnet. people who i have told can come and see me at the station or miras.
LISTEN. if i didnt tell u what time i get into Oulu, do not try and come... or u will ruin my hard hard work on surprising you with my super cool gifty. This means you mert!

well i was watching this.
http://video.msn.com/?mkt=en-au&brand=ninemsn&tab=m182&mediaid=200718&from=39&vid=7861E3C5-D5AC-4D9C-A9A7-F737BF928596&playlist=videoByTag:mk:en-AU:vs:0:tag:auentertainment_aumovies:ns:MSNVideo_Top_Cat:ps:10:sd:-1:ind:1:ff:8A
a clip from HSM3 yeah.. all good and all happy cheeryness and all that crap
but then i found this and HSM will never be the same for me

http://celebrities.ninemsn.com.au/blog.aspx?blogentryid=160482&showcomments=true

yeah...

IT'S DONE i finlay finished it, after.. god knows how many months of pain! now i have to pay extra to take it on the plane... curses!
good thing it doesnt weight much. oh i wish i could show u guess, but then .. the slut will see it and it will ruin all my hard work so yeah n_n