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I am not an extension. To anybody.
I am not a scape goat.
I am an INDIVIDUAL.
I do have bad and good sides, so does anyone.
I do bitch and complain. At least, I am trying to look for the right things to do.
I do not want to serve as a middleman. Because, if you got something to say to someone, go ahead do it, but not through me.
You can bitch at me: I will either listen to you, and consider whether your bitchin is reasonable or not. OR! If I already know, that you are bitching at me to let the steam out, I am not going to listen to you, I will either ignore you or I will strike back.
I do require certain things from people, simple things: respect (at least respect me as a human being, if you do not know me well, and if you do not know why the hell you should respect me), recognition (you know, I am not one of the irritating things that are on your way to whatever, OR you know, if I am there then I am there, and I am pretty tired of sayings like "why don't you go and talk to peopl" oh, I did, and I still do, but I am not running after anyone, unless the people are REALLY close to me), and, of course, tolerance (if you don't like something, go ahead, come and tell me, in nice calm voice and make it rational, ok?, besides, I do have feelings and sometimes I get too happy or messed up or excited or angry, etc., there is almost always a reason)

Lastly, if after you read this (and I mean, "you" can be ANYONE) don't jump to a conclusion that I am overly arrogant, overly confident and overly rude, ask yourself, don't you feel the same way?
I don't usually stand up and express my opinion: that's because I might see that kind of thing pointless (depending on the audience and situation) or I am being either a bit arrogant or ignorant. But hey, show me a person, who thinks that waste of time is a good thing.

P.S. I bet you recognise yourself in this text. It is just the thing about being rational.


I've posted this in facebook and here. And I really hope, someone would pay attention.

there was a glassy wall
built with the hands of ignorance
lack of acceptance among them all
fear and a lot of arrogance

there was a glassy wall

there were careful steps
silence was the queen
supported by the bruit blanc
that came from their laugh

little figure. non existent
in their eyes
little figure - just another thing that moves around.
little figure is not there anymore

the glassy wall as broken
little figure crawled out.
little figure grew. minds were shaken.
I am different now.

i went to dentists... i ended up havin a beautiful bruise on my cheek.

astonishment - and amazement. and urgh, i feel like crap.
anywaaaaaay, let's bitch for a bit. this is my third year in lukio, as in the last year of school - yay! wow! booo! omg....!!.. beautiful exams await. and i cannot be fucked to do anything about them... well, i am trying though.. to do something.

and, i wanna go somewhere... have a holiday.... move out... alone...or with Viktor. and i want my tooth to stop hurting and my lower back to stop itching.
should i drink a cup of tea?
godamn tooth

emotions atm:
anger, confusion, frustration, aggression, love
feelings:
i feel that i might throw up any second, because of this bullshit

i would REEEEEEEAAAAAAAALLLY love to break something, beat up someone or just destroy the entire house. i would not mind burnin something. like that napkin i burnt in the school toilet. that was soo much fun.

have just realised that i do not have any metro picture. although, did not get all weird about it. will a have a problem with society if i don't have a metro picture and my hair just does not want to be all beautiful and gorgeous. and at least stay as i put it without getting all curly and pointing in different directions. how did i manage to come to this topic? well, i do have an answer, however, i shall be more politically correct and polite, and the only way of doing it is to be silent. *(BITCHES)*
nuclear power plants?..

what are u doin?
are u diggin into my memory?
leavin there dots and spaces?
tearin it to shreds?
i remembered happy times...
they are gettin deleted by the evil entries
i don't cry...
i just feel sad....
id like to find out what is missin
replaced by irrelevant junk

which day is it?

im not runnin away
and im not fightin
doin absolutely nothing
not even drownin into the sea of hatred

is it whatever?

and where is my violin?..

the sunset behind our backs.
the past was so sour.
the past was so great.
the familiar smell. and familiar softness of ur skin.
lovely. i like it.
i like that it's u.
i like that i'm with u.
*and then they kissed*

every tomorrow will turn into yesterday
and the future will never come
there is only this moment
and every second it turns into past

everything becomes a memory
insignificant things drown in the sea of events
things that happen now, its only them existin
noone knows which "now" is next

once upon a time a wizard created two girls, he wanted both of them to be blond, with blue eyes, because the wizard was evil a bit and he wanted to hav daughters lookin like princesses, so that ppl would av thought that he is a king, but as the wizard at the moment of creation had the woooorst hangover wizards can hav, the girls were ginger and black. and they looked like witches. the wizard knew that he cant hang around with these kinda women, bcz ppl were really scared of any kind of magic, so they cud destroy him and the girls. the reason why the girls were lookin like witches was that they were hot - long hair, long legs and of course big boobs. the wizard didn know how he cud use those women, he tried to make em do the house work - they cudn, they already had this thing with nail breakin. he tried to make them look less sexy, but they said fuck u to the wizard. but once them three decided to drink because of their unhappiness (they had to hide themselves), so they drank and drank and drank, till the night fell down on the village and all of the evil and sneaky ppl came out. suddenly the drinks ended and wizard wanted more, but he didn wanna move anywher, so he though "hmmm, i hav no money, and i dont wanna use ma magical powers to make money, hmm, ill send one of the girls to get money and drinks, its dark noone will see their hotness and kill us." so he sent ginger head first, she was away for quite a while but when she came back she had a lot of drinks, and one cud av found money in her tiny shorts and black bra, that she made look like a tiny top. wizard asked her where she got everything from, she just smiled drank a bit more and passed out. the money that she brought was enuf for another 3 days. then on the 4th day, wizard while drinkin sum rum though: "now i can use the black haired one" and he sent her to the dark streets of the village. the same thing as last time when ginger head was sent happened to the black head woman. wizard asked her, she smiled, drank a bit more and passed out.the next day while the women were sleepin, the wizard thought of that magic that those women do, apparently it was much more powerful than his magic. then he understood what happened. the next minute, him and the women still pased out were goin to a big city. the wizard became the first pimp in the world. the end.