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emotions atm:
anger, confusion, frustration, aggression, love
feelings:
i feel that i might throw up any second, because of this bullshit

i would REEEEEEEAAAAAAAALLLY love to break something, beat up someone or just destroy the entire house. i would not mind burnin something. like that napkin i burnt in the school toilet. that was soo much fun.

have just realised that i do not have any metro picture. although, did not get all weird about it. will a have a problem with society if i don't have a metro picture and my hair just does not want to be all beautiful and gorgeous. and at least stay as i put it without getting all curly and pointing in different directions. how did i manage to come to this topic? well, i do have an answer, however, i shall be more politically correct and polite, and the only way of doing it is to be silent. *(BITCHES)*
nuclear power plants?..

what are u doin?
are u diggin into my memory?
leavin there dots and spaces?
tearin it to shreds?
i remembered happy times...
they are gettin deleted by the evil entries
i don't cry...
i just feel sad....
id like to find out what is missin
replaced by irrelevant junk

which day is it?

im not runnin away
and im not fightin
doin absolutely nothing
not even drownin into the sea of hatred

is it whatever?

and where is my violin?..

the sunset behind our backs.
the past was so sour.
the past was so great.
the familiar smell. and familiar softness of ur skin.
lovely. i like it.
i like that it's u.
i like that i'm with u.
*and then they kissed*

every tomorrow will turn into yesterday
and the future will never come
there is only this moment
and every second it turns into past

everything becomes a memory
insignificant things drown in the sea of events
things that happen now, its only them existin
noone knows which "now" is next

once upon a time a wizard created two girls, he wanted both of them to be blond, with blue eyes, because the wizard was evil a bit and he wanted to hav daughters lookin like princesses, so that ppl would av thought that he is a king, but as the wizard at the moment of creation had the woooorst hangover wizards can hav, the girls were ginger and black. and they looked like witches. the wizard knew that he cant hang around with these kinda women, bcz ppl were really scared of any kind of magic, so they cud destroy him and the girls. the reason why the girls were lookin like witches was that they were hot - long hair, long legs and of course big boobs. the wizard didn know how he cud use those women, he tried to make em do the house work - they cudn, they already had this thing with nail breakin. he tried to make them look less sexy, but they said fuck u to the wizard. but once them three decided to drink because of their unhappiness (they had to hide themselves), so they drank and drank and drank, till the night fell down on the village and all of the evil and sneaky ppl came out. suddenly the drinks ended and wizard wanted more, but he didn wanna move anywher, so he though "hmmm, i hav no money, and i dont wanna use ma magical powers to make money, hmm, ill send one of the girls to get money and drinks, its dark noone will see their hotness and kill us." so he sent ginger head first, she was away for quite a while but when she came back she had a lot of drinks, and one cud av found money in her tiny shorts and black bra, that she made look like a tiny top. wizard asked her where she got everything from, she just smiled drank a bit more and passed out. the money that she brought was enuf for another 3 days. then on the 4th day, wizard while drinkin sum rum though: "now i can use the black haired one" and he sent her to the dark streets of the village. the same thing as last time when ginger head was sent happened to the black head woman. wizard asked her, she smiled, drank a bit more and passed out.the next day while the women were sleepin, the wizard thought of that magic that those women do, apparently it was much more powerful than his magic. then he understood what happened. the next minute, him and the women still pased out were goin to a big city. the wizard became the first pimp in the world. the end.

listenin to the song "glory box"by portishead.
..........................."give me a reason to love you, give me a reason to beeee-h-eee.... a womaaan, i justa wanna be a woo-h-maaan".........

if u think of it, what reason would u give as a proper one to love u? never thought of it, huh?
prettyness isn enuf to love for, many ppl are pretty, the one that loves u could as well love them all
smartness isn enuf as well, how many ppl DO NOT love smartasses?
being a nice person? well evryone is nice and at some points not very nice at all that u wanna go "oh, fuck you, bitch"

i love him, because he is just that way i like. all the good sides and all the bad sides make me love him. ye, ye, bad sides as well.

gimme summer night and stars i will show ma happyness

lookin through the fotos that dont represent
anythin
tho still it is seen how i changed durin the past years
how is it gonna be
that i cant find exactly what i want
the way i wanna be
the way when it is the real me
how long it is gonna take to be open perfectly for the world
they say im closed
but maybe i can be opened
to see the soul inside out
the naked truth
how long it is gonna take to put ma mind in order
to get the troubles all away
to find the way to go, holdin the hand of the one i got?
gimme a piano ill show u how i feel
makin the random sounds of me
ill play everything i had and hav
ill show how sad and arrogant the music can be bcz it is me
gimme a pencil and paper ill show what i got
with the simple lines i make
gimme ppl and music ill show how ma life is
ill make them dance the way it was

sometimes when im surrounded by ppl i still feel lonely. like ppl make groups and i dont belong to any of em.
rabbits.
fire.
fun and laugh.
wtf
u make it go all argh.