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sudden wakin up and returnin to the actual world. after several days fo bein sumhow hypnotized by freedom and no time limits. and suddeny everything seems to be normal again, but this normal seems to be too difficult, too challengin, too much of it. april. almost half of it is done. got may left and well ok the other half of april. o'rite. this freakin time runs too fast. never hav time to do everything i want. it means i gotta abandon sum things, and most of the time it wud be those things that i like, that make ma life... complete?.. i dont like this word, seems too used in pop sosngs bout heart breakin and stuff. but well. and here we go. again im sittin typin here ma thoughts, and i dont even expect anyone to read it, thus it makes the whole thing pointless. cuz well i hav ma thoughts in ma head, and ma head is always with me.
p.s. seems like bullshit i wrote up there.
but anyway. gotta get the strength and do whatever im spsd to do. and i gotta do loads of stuff. many small things that turn up to be very important small things. like a thousand of those important small things. and they all mixed together make a huuuuuuuggggeeee ball of important stuff. and also, mixed together they cause panick and more lazyness. thats how i end up doin nuthin. pisses me off a bit. but well. i got only me to help in certain things, even tho i cud get sum elp from other ppl, nobody will do the exact thing i wanna do or i must do or whatever.
so... yea. everybody loves holidays, dont they? but after them u feel to pressured. well thats no good.