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Yesterday I listened to his song Onpu no tegami like 500times and still love that song, plus I added one more Itoshii hito. It's such a wonderful lyrics and with the news his daughter was born, it's much more meaningful.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-W9_OZG5yTM
The translation should be like this:

My beloved
Don't cry, show me a smile.
I didn't say I liked seeing tears, did I?

My beloved
It's all right, you're not lonely, now.
Just when you're lonely, I'm lonely too?

My beloved
Don't open your closed eyes just yet, ok.
Just like that... just like that... but don't go to sleep (laugh)

My beloved
It's not "I could die for you" but rather I've decided "I'll live for you"
Of course together with you too, now, forever, and ever

Don't love yourself any more, 'cause I'll have what's left over.

My beloved
Even if we were to be born again, because I would be this me,
And you will be that you.
And I will say this again, always, allways.

My beloved
Slowly open those eyes, it's the same as always isn't it?

That is good.
That is good.

Thank You all for yesterday, it was way too amazing, hopefully we can all meet after all :P

I can see I'm not the only one with crazy plans :D That's great.
Hopefully we will meet with Tess, we've never seen eachother in reality, but she's a great person.
And 11. 11. London, why not, my friend just told me she wants to go and has no one to go with.

was so great, I mean what an unexpected warm welcome can give you so much energy.
Well maybe it depends on what relationship you have with the person who made that, but it was so cool, he was just so close... close to me but also close to my heart. We're like two little kids unite together in the playground against the adults... well I wish we were like that, unfortunately I felt it just once, this Monday, since and before it's still the same, work, work, work *rolling eyes*.

I have the airticket... I have the airticket... I really have it O.o
It reminds me, me standing at Helsinki's railway station after coming from Tampere the very first day of my holiday last year. It was like unbelievable and I know this time it will be more unreal than ever and honestly, I can't wait!!! My heart is happily dancing hand in hand with the idea that I'm actually going, *tear drop falls roll on my face* finally I'm gonna live my dream for few days again!!!!

Fiiiiiiiiiihiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii
So I have booked and paid my airticket to my Promise Land. Officially I'm there from 09-09 to 16-09 so see you all there :P

I picked up my won prize the CD Uroboros by Dir en grey and gosh I love it!!! So powerful and emotional (not only the CD itself, but the memories connected to it and yeah well Kyo).

Today was strange, work is fine but sometimes pain in the ass, plus my supervisor, well, I easily lose my attention while he teaches us :D :D :D

And yep, although I was all fun and had excellent mood today (even before I danced happily from booking my holiday), one person was there to ruin it a bit because I was in such a great mood mainly because of him... well, nevermind, it reminds me to get back to old trail and don't let others too close :)

Oyasuminasai ****

It was hell of a week but I guess in the end it was worth it :P
From Monday on my Japanese language course started so everyday I woke up at 6:30am, got 3 hours of this amazing language and then went to work, got home at 11pm, got to sleep at 2am and the next day all over again. At least they had an energy drink very cheap this week so I survived. On Thursday we partied with our colleagues and today a bit of shopping with mom and seeing my two friends from Hradec Králové in Olomouc.... and I'm too tired to write sth more, just maybe, tell me where is "ai", I NEED IT!

I started learning Japanese today! Only for a week but at least something. I actually like it a lot altough I can't remember it much + too much work (studying for it too) = means I'm tired, can't go to sleep, I have to study but I'm so glad my life turned 360 degrees around :P It's so exciting, only to have so much energy would be great.

Kimi Wa Inaika

Aozora to oka wo koetara ima mo kimi no ie ga mieru
Sougen no naka hashaideru mujakina goro no
Omoikiri ikiru kimi wa inaika

Oh ~ nigirishimete wa hanasazuniita
Taisetsuna kimi wa inaika
Donna tokini demo sabishii to
Keshite ienakatta ima demo sonna kimi wa inaika

Oh ~ keshite kotoba ni dekinai kurai
Taisetsuna nanika ga atte
keshite sore wo hanasazuni
Inochi kezutte made mo ima demo dareka wo mamotte inaika

Yume wo tsukamu jinsei yori
daichi to tomoni ikitai
Kaze no naka kagayaiteiru kimi wo miteitai
Shoujikina michi wo aruiteitai

Oh ~ kaeranai seishun ni mo kuinai youni
Jibun no koto sutetenai ka
Baka mitai ni massuguni tobikondeitta
Ano koro no mama no kimi wa inaika

Oh ~ kimi wa inaika
Sonna sonna sonna kimi ga
Fu ~ Fu ~
Kizutsuitemo mada shinjiteiru kimi wa inaika
Fu ~ Fu ~
Kizutsuitemo mada aishiteiru kimi wa inaika
Fu ~ kimi wa inaika

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Are you still there

Laughing with joy beneath the vast blue sky
Running across friends of deep, deep green
Far beyond the hills I can see it Â…the home of my heart
Oh, where have they gone, those happy, carefree days?
Oh---living to the fullest, life as it was meant to be
Where are you now, my dear precious one
Though there were times when you felt lonely
You never let your feelings show
As time goes by, I wonder if youÂ’re still there
Oh---words just donÂ’t have the power to express
How you never let go of your beliefs
You'd put yourself out on the line, even risking your own life
Who are you watching over now, ever faithful, ever true.

Rather than spend time chasing elusive dreams
A pure and simple life is all I need
I want to look out over the horizon, and see you shining on the wind
In peace and harmony in the arms of Mother Nature
Oh--- Living with regrets for those lost days of youth
DonÂ’t you think youÂ’re sacrificing your real self
You who always jumped straight in, without ever looking back
As time goes by, I wonder where you have gone

Oh--- (Tell me) Are you still there?
Tell me, tell me , are you still there?
Fu-- Fu--
Though you were hurt so much, you never gave up believing
Fu-- Fu--
Though you were hurt so much, you never gave up loving
Fu-- Are you still there within me?

http://piratespiritzero.deviantart.com/art/Matsumoto-Hideto-We-Miss-You-86775337

love this poem made for him and want to keep the comments:

It speaks from souls of most, maybe even all of his fans.
I found out X Japan very late, just now, and even though I've never heard them before, nor I knew who they were, I cried for like 3 days in a row while watching their videos. I thought I will never be able to listen to songs like Without you, Longing, Forever love (okey, this one I still cannot listen) or their latest I. V., which all I love but somehow slightly it's getting better and even though I'm watching some tribute videos or lives, I smile and instead of pain I feel love. Love for what he has done, for who he was, for his smiling face, colourful outfits, crazy facial expressions and pinky hair (altough I hate pink colour) :D He left a great legacy and even though it has been tinged by shade of grief, it's rather positive and happy one.