IRC-Galleria

[nalleann]

[nalleann]

found the deep love inside

Hyvää kesääLauantai 30.06.2007 23:08

I forgot (of course, my old brain) to wish YOU ALL a great summer holiday and lots of fun!!!

missingLauantai 30.06.2007 00:16

"If you love somebody, let them go
If they return, they were always yours
If they don't, they never were"

quote from my sis journal: http://xfoolforyoux.livejournal.com/

I like this quote a lot, maybe it's even true, I mean, Ville wrote me a msg that he will be back in September, you don't even know how much I wanted him to stay, that I'd be the reason for him to stay in Czech and ... he will come back, not because of me, but anyway
but I finally managed to get over him and I thought I will never ever be able, but it is like this and he is just a sweet memory with bitter taste but nothing else
the cure - Hell-sin-ki - was amazing and once again it helped me to be there
kiitos kaikille, love you

and yeah, I have busy time now, lots of things to do and I wanna do lots of things either, so please be patient with my replies, I'm just trying to find time to write you and trust me, I do wanna write you lots of things from my heart, just need the time
and I'm preparing a new website of my own and you know, I will put reviews, pics, vids and more there, but I didn't even have time to think about the layout yet, so it will take time 'till I start with that but I can't already wait, I need to create something again, I miss it a lot

so koita parjäillä (hope it's written like that) everyone and give me a bit of time, I miss you all

Hyvaa Juhannus Paivaa kaikilleLauantai 23.06.2007 21:07



PS: I'm coming back home on 26th of June but at home I will be actually on 28th
Breaking up is hard to do, but sometimes making up can be even harder. You and someone important are on your way to repairing your relationship, but it is still going to take some long heart-to-hearts to get things to a healthy place. Good communication requires trust and honesty -- which happen to be two of your specialties! The stars say that you should stop being afraid and start opening up. You two will end up stronger than you ever were before.

Do You think it will get repaired, me and Ville's relationship, I beg for it but who knows *crying* and I had a dream about him once again, it hurt...
awww.... it's was excellent.
I had too many worries and problems at that day, not only that I had no place to stay overnight after the gig coz all the busses go in the morning, but the next day (after the whole night without any sleep) I had 2 exams.
And I really regreted that I went there, all those probs around it but then...
it's always like that, I regret it instead of look forward and then, fortunately, someone up there make it so damn great and I do not regret anything, I'm happy to decided to go

The support band totally surprised me. They are from Finland and I do love the most the song 'Water', it's amazing live, but they were almost that good as Placebo itself O.o I really loved them and too bad I miss them in Helsinki (stupid exams).

And Placebo, shall I add something? Nooo, they were the best, I love Brian's voice and finally I could see him (barely) live but his voice is much much more 'taller' than him. It was a brill show but too short and they played all of my fave songs except 'Black eyed' (I'd start to cry probably if they would play).
I'd love to see them again but that's impossible for some time, nevermind, I had a brill time once again and put some drugs into my veins by this gig (of course my music drug!!!).

Kiitos everyone for making it so perfect after all!
And special thx to Bananova, you saved my life... once again, I owe you.


PS: Setlist:
1) Infra-red
2) Because I want you
3) Meds
4) Drag
5) Sleeping with Ghosts
6) I know
7) song to say Goodbye
8) Follow the Cops back Home
9) Every You every Me
10) Special Needs
11) One of a kind
12) Without You I'm Nothing
13) Post Blue snad
14) Blind
15) Special K
16) Bitter End

encore:
17) Running up that Hill (cover)
18) Taste in Men
19) Twenty Years

just note to rememberSunnuntai 03.06.2007 22:17

just in Czech

no taak, hadejte o kom to bylo, no jasne, kdo jinej, Ville
byl ridicem busu v PV, na zastavce v Domamyslicich, mel jet do Brna, ale bus vypadal jak normal MHDecko
sla jsem prvni a zaplatila si jizdenku do Brna, mezitim za mimy zady na Villeho lapaly rukama nejaky my spoluzacky a chtely uz k nemu
vydal mi listek a pak si uvedomil, ze tam nejede, aha, tak jsem chtela vystoupit, ale pak jsem si uvedomila, ze nebudu mit penize na listek do Brna, tak jsem chtela, aby mi ty penize vratil, ale on nevedel jak -> zmatek
tak jsem se na to vykaslala, na co do Brna, abych z Brna mohla do PV, kdyz uz jsem v PV
tak jsem vybehla a utikala domu (mam to kousek) a Ville za mnou, ale nestihl me (myslim)
a tenhle sen byl driv nebo pozdejc (nevim) - Ville byl u nas ve sklepe, na cerno, nikdo o nem nevedel a podaval mi listecek, ja ho zahodila aniz bych se na nej podivala, asi to bylo rozlouceni, a prepadl me pocit, ze se mu chci oprit o hrud, coz pro me znamena pocit bezpeci, ale neudelala jsem to, prtz mezi nama nic neni

proc se mi to zdalo, nevim, rano v pondeli nejela poulicka a ja malem nestihla zadnej bus do Hradce, svatej tatka me tam hodil
ironie je, ze Ville nema ani ridicak a neumi tak dobre cesky
ty spoluzacky, co na nej smataly, jsou jeho kamaradky
a mezi nama dvema proste doslo zase k nedorozumeni, zmatkum a vzdani se
to s tim utekem, asi se uz nestihneme rozloucit nez odjedu/de

a ten listecek, ja mu psala SMS a cekala odpoved, ktera neprisla, tak asi proto se mi to zdalo, jako touha hehe a ze byl ve sklepe na cerno, no asi ze nasi o nem sice vedi, ale jen tolik, aby nemohli nic rikat, takze je to vpodtate taky na cerno

[Ei aihetta]Torstai 31.05.2007 23:48

btw. I've changed my hair colour - by accident, so no more blond (okie, until I'm in Helsinki again (fiiiha, in just 2 weeks I'm at home again)

Vnus vs. AurinkoniTorstai 31.05.2007 23:47

...
when I first heard the sample of Vnus, I was disappointed but I knew I can't say if I like the song or not just from a short sample so I waited
and now, it's my 'saviour', it saved me for several times last week, it took me out from very deep miseries so... kiiti
and Aurinkoni... maaaláááá ...................... <3 I've no other words, I LOVE IT

Dreaming continueTorstai 24.05.2007 18:11

Well, it's so weird. Few days back I had a dream with Chester Bennington, the vocalist of Linkin Park. I dunno why, maybe it was due to the song Valentine's day. But we were so close with our faces but couldn't see each others eyes, but I could easily feel how much he was desperate and it made me feel so down. You could feel how the pain was killing him and it was slightly breaking me into pieces either. But he came for a hug, for comfort and I hope it worked out, but I dunno, I woke up from that dream. Then another weird one came. My parents were cleaning under my bed (actually I have a new one for like 2 months) and they found there a 'lil puppy. It was alive what was weirdest because it had to live there for at least 20 years without food or anything, just on that one spot, unnoticed!!! O.o

And tonight... shall I even mention it, another dream with Ville in one week :(
It was stupid, we just had an English lesson but our teacher was ill. So Ville (Spaniard) was teaching us so we opened our exercise books of ... Finnish (Czech book for beginners)!!! And started to read. Nobody could understand because noone (also Ville himself) can't speak Finnish, but they were translating it and one class mate answered for Ville's question in German???? WTF
Then Ville asked if anyone is going for holiday to abroad and pointed at one class mate where he's going to go for holiday and he said not to a foreign country but Ville didn't ask me, because he already knew.

The dream wasn't that bad, I woke up immediately after that and ... I felt a bit like dying. Letting him go is quite hard for me, I like it or not but soon he'll be gone and there will be no mention about him, no msg from him, NOTHING!
I've never learnt to let go and I still can't learn. I always put everything into relationships of any kind and it's pretty hard for me to get over it if there is an end (and it's always unfortunately). It always takes me an ocean of time to recover from that sadness but anyway, soon I will run away again, like in February but it was different, I came back and he was here but now, he will be GONE FOREVER! ,-(

esp. for BananovaSunnuntai 20.05.2007 14:20

http://www.valio.fi/kidius/
go at the bottom for Talo and click there on Hiiri, it's so damn funny esp. when tehy say "Roooock'n'rollllll" :D :D :D