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hihSunnuntai 30.07.2006 17:59

Too many things happened yesterday and today and I'm in love with my life again...
hehe it was fabulous and at the same time it was THE time of despair but hei, they saved me once again... how can even they know, how bad I felt that they made me so happy :D
but I have a headache but they probably too :P
gonna write a review, post vids and write an email too Lazy P... hope the keys are with him now!
hei, the life sucks most of the time but there are also great amazing fabulous fantastic experiences... I LOVE THEM
THANK YOU

The rasmusPerjantai 28.07.2006 21:52

yeah, you read right, I was just thinking I've never ever wrote about them or even post their lyrics, why? I may know why.

few days back I finally went to my doctor (for adults) to register there (I had two years delay :D) and he asked me about my family, if anyone has something bad with their health and I said something but the 'main' thing I forgot. When the doctor's assistent mention my mum and sth with her leg, then I remembered, yeah, she has operated leg and shorter one of them... they call it 'trouble with health' but me not, I wouldn't even mention it becoz I take it like a matter of course, nothing different, nothing bad and this is a bit similar with me and The Rasmus. I just take them like my friends...
yeah, it's totally different with TR and other bands, even though I listen to other bands probably more than TR, I feel more special about TR than about the others. Why? Well, it's just that TR are like my family, I'm with them everyday, I know many of their fans personally and many of them are my friends, we are like huge family with great 'parents' :D
Of course, pity that I don't have to fly to Finland just to see them live like with Uniklubi, but I'm thankful it was Uniklubi and not TR, it was something new and different and special.
I cannot compare TR to any other band, coz I take them in different way and also becoz every band has different meaning for me, different memories.

Ah, this is just becoz I'm packing my bag and leaving in few hours (exactly 11 hours lol) to see them. Heh, I've never been afraid to go to their gig but today it was different (I quite use this word too much). I felt nervous (yes, yes, becoz of the stupid train *rolling eyes*) that I will see The Rasmus tomorrow, it's like a fairy-tale... :)
Let's see what will happen but now I feel quite prepared and calm that I might didn't forget anything... and I'm excited to feel what I feel everytime when I go to some gig but this time it will be premiere for me, 1st time I'm gonna see TR on a festival

take care you all and rock like fu*k (*quote of Janne Selo*) *saint*

:)Keskiviikko 26.07.2006 15:08

hih, now I know why they didn't accepted me for the Masaryk's University and it was useless to send the repeal, becoz they will accept everyone with better results than me whether he/she has sent them the repeal or not
but nevermind, I'm gonna live as long as my destiny wants
well, I have this line on my mind: "we're gonna make it somehow"
it always helped me and now too

but stop with complaining, no, there is always 'bright side of this suffering' and it's my nameday
hehe thank you ÂŽofi for the large and beautiful Finland, that was the most original greeting I've ever had :D
and thx ali, I think today is the day of Ice Age, outside is sooo cold, I'm only wondering how come it doesn't snow :D

...Keskiviikko 26.07.2006 01:35

heh, when man is down and somebody starts to talk about freezing cold and having a cup of hot tea every half an hour it can help from that neverending hot weather :D
thank you, it brought me back up on my feet, sounds stupid enough to make me laugh :D

but I don't know, now it's pretty interesting, everything's upside down, waiting is killing me, I have to admit it but then what will come next? the temptation of something new is calling me and that's what I like... what I always liked

eventhough I'm more than worried I'm smilling right now and the unsecure feeling is dead for a moment, well, at least this talk with my mum today really helped me, never do such a thing but it was good, but I won't practise it much often coz bothering others with my problems... no, never, friends, relatives etc are here to cheer them up not to bring them down (okie, don't take me as an example!) and still, nobody is gonna understand me ever, of course, there could be somebody one day who can see at the bottom of my soul but only the same person as me can understand me and they say everyone is special so I won't find another 'me' ever, but it's better out this way...

now, or better from 1. 9. 06 the new life will begin, where? how? somewhere, somehow... anyway it all ends up with endless sleeping after all :) so what's the deal

have a great time wherever you are

weird dream againMaanantai 24.07.2006 20:13

but this one was pretty cool (I mean cool not cool :) )
I was sledging down our street where I live hehe it was pretty hot night so the dream was at least cold :-)

kiitos kaikkilleMaanantai 24.07.2006 19:19

thank you all who left a comment in my irc-galleria, unfortunately I had to erase all the pics *sob sob* so also with your lovely comments
so kiitos and have a great time wherever you are

current song ~ Time of despair by Entwine ~ Keskiviikko 28.06.2006 22:50

I longed to hear this song again, now it's not connected with my mood, for the first time, just I had a feeling that I need to hear it, *in this time of despair* oh...can't wait for the new album

Eternal is the pain that you gave me
Lonely roses wither and die
These tears of mine stain your veil
I'm forced to hide and fade away
So soon the time will come
Take my life and bring me to the ground

In this Time of Despair
When all that you love is dead
It's my desireless game to be alive

It's a heart of stone that beats inside
I'm forced to climb over the walls
Stillness falls upon this endless night

In this Time of Despair
When all that you love is dead
It's my desireless game to be alive
I'm trying to get well
But I'm just cryin' for the end
It's my desireless way to be alive

Eternal is the pain that you gave me
Lonely roses wither and die

Negative tour 2006Keskiviikko 28.06.2006 22:44

21-11-2006 Negative, Vienna club Szene, I wanna go, to hear Anorectic album and enjoy the time, what you think Pee?

weird dream last nightKeskiviikko 28.06.2006 14:12

Woah, what a weird dream I had last night. For such a long time I haven't had a dream about musicians and yesterday even about two, hehe lets say two in one.

The explanation in brackets is the similarity in real life.


The first one was situated on our high school party at the end of our studies, it was some leaving party or better to say ball.

I left pretty fast after beginning (at our leaving party I left after one hour or so and my teacher reproached it to me yesterday) and went to some kaffee. There was Eicca from Apocalyptica and I went straight to him (hehe, this will never happen in reality that I would dare to go to some person, not even famous) and started to talk to him about music. He was nice and we talked a bit, I asked about Kalevala (Finnish national epos). If Kalevala theme reflects in their lyrics/songs and he said yes. Then I had to leave to the leaving party again, it was important and he promised me to wait for me so he went away with me to that party.

I sat down at a table and Eicca sat down near my table so I could clearly see him.

Then it was the end of the ceremony and we met again to going on talking about music but my first dream ended up in here so have no clue what happened next maybe I asked him, if the music of Jean Sibelius influenced their music lol.

But I have no idea why Eicca was in my dream. I like some songs by Apocalyptica but I don't know all of their work and I didn't even browse the internet to search for sth about Apo so really have no clue why he was in my dream.


The second dream was weirdest. I know why I dreamt like that. Becoz of this picture:

http://www.rmj.fi/pictures/images/Uniklubi2.jpg

I found it out yesterday, the pic from Raumanmeren Juhannus 2006 and I was pretty angry.

Look at Teemu, hes wearing dress, same idea like Eero (TR) had few years ago, Jussi wearing the same sweater like Eero in recent gigs and Antti (actually he is a sweetheart, so I couldn't be angry at him that much) looks like bald, since when he's wearing scarf?
Oki, there is nothing weird about what they wear, the scarf is pretty useful esp. in summer, the sweater is probably more uncomfortable in summer, but that's Jussi, what we would expect from him? And the dress, its quite comfortable to wear it in summer, esp. without underwear!

But you know, I was angry (not that much but still) becoz of the similarity with TR.
Actually I respect when Janne told me he doesn't like TR, I respect their opinions, I respect even what Teemu says about TR in media but hey, some things are too much he can express his thoughts (we live in democracy, at least I hope so) but some of his words get me angry. How can he even dare? *no, stay calm*

So about the dream. It was in my bedroom, my friend came to me and brought me new album of Uniklubi (will be released in first quarter of 2007 maybe) so we listened to it.

First song was like it was sang by a woman, no Uniklubi sound at all, second one was I think Huomenna (so definitely Unis song) and the third one. Actually it didn't sound like Uni again, was sang by other male artist but I thought it's by Uniklubi anyway. It was a coversong from The Rasmus. And becoz I was so freaked out from yesterday (the similarity with TR in dressing, esp. Teemu) I got angry that Uniklubi even dare to make a coversong from The Rasmus (have no clue which one unfortunately). Actually it wasn't that bad one, but I thought it's by Uniklubi so I was swearing and for me it was shit what they did.

Then suddenly appeared Jussi (singer of Uni) right in front of me in my small room. He probably sang the coversong and I started to beat him and he fell down to the ground.

Well, when I woke up, I was pretty ashamed that I was so angry with him becoz of nothing but hey, it was a dream, in reality I can't even kill a fly (coz it's too fast for me). No, I probably know why I was dreaming like that.

Yesterday I had quite bad day so first came Eicca (it could be any other person in the world) and comforted me becoz I could speak about my fave theme, music. And then I was a bit angry with esp. Teemu and Jussi and becoz I would never ever express my anger in reality, at least it vaporized in that dream.

PS: take it just like a dream, no offence to anyone!

Within Temptation - AquariusMaanantai 05.06.2006 21:40

I hear your whispers
break the silence and it calms me down
Your taste on my lips
your salty kisses

They say I'm seeking out the danger
That one day you won't let me go
(I'll drown, you'll take me down)

I need you Aquarius
enchanted I will have to stay
I feel you Aquarius
cause you the sea set me free
You call to me Aquarius
(You call to me, you set me free)

I relinquish to your powers
From your grasp, I just can't hide
Missed the danger I had to conquer
You made me feel alive

They say I have to be aware
that one day you won't let me go
(I'll drown, you'll take me down)

I long for you Aquarius
I need to be with you again
I fear you, Aquarius
My destiny till the end
I love the orchestral version, so damn amazing!