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Under your spell again
I can't say no to you
crave my heart and its bleeding in your hand
I can't say no to you

Shouldn't have let you torture me so sweetly
now I can't let go of this dream
I can't breathe but I feel

Good enough
I feel good enough for you

Drink up sweet decadence
I can't say no to you
and I've completely lost myself and I don't mind
I can't say no to you

Shouldn't have let you conquer me completely
now I can't let go of this dream
can't believe that I feel

Good enough
I feel good enough
its been such a long time coming, but I feel good

and I'm still waiting for the rain to fall
pour real life down on me
cause I can't hold on to anything this good
enough
am I good enough
for you to love me too?

so take care what you ask of me
cause I can't say no

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dedicated to G. J.
except the chorus, it perfectly fits

10/1/06 - forbidden fruit taste the best but don't kill me for it
it was my sweet fault but what's the worst, I don't regret it, SHAME!

but it probably took all my illusions and dreams? ;-(

finally, broken, lonesom, but home, at least few days for studying, how much I hate myself that I didn't study more... my fault and I have to pay for it, but I won't loss/fail one more time, no way, not from such a stupid subject!

and hyvää joulua everyone and happy New Year

Ani

On Monday my mom called me that my bro had a car accident... O.o
I was like somebody would stabbed me in my back (again)... after my shock and very long time she told me he is allright but at night I had a dream about my brother, it was the first time I had a dream with him! We both we're crying about the accident even though he had only light bruises, but still... I realized how much I love him even though I've never told him!

And since today I know what means: heart broken... the pain is so weight and my heart is torn into million of lil pieces just because of... I was walking the streets, sitting in buses with tears in my eyes, almost burst into tears too many times but I couldn't, there were people... oh, that's my weak side, I always think what other thinks about me and then... I miss lots of things, feelings, people...

nevermind, I always just mumblening, why not today but since September I've learnt so many things but still I'm just a kid who doesn't deserve love of someone else than family members and who can't dare to feel what people in my age can feel, 'cos they always say, you're a lil kid, you'll never know what we know, you'll never feel what we feel, you're nothing and stay in your childish shoes forever

~ Like the naked leads the blind
I know IÂ’m selfish IÂ’m unkind
Sucker love I always find
Someone to bruise and leave behind
All alone in space and time
ThereÂ’s nothing here but what hereÂ’s mine
Something borrowed something blue ~
~ Ask for answers ~
~ Teenage angst ~
~ Without you I'm nothing ~
~ Sleeping with ghosts ~

Lost in the darkness, hoping for a sign.
Instead there is only silence,
can't you hear my screams?
Never stop hoping,
Need to know where you are,
but one thing is for sure,
you're always in my heart.

I'll find you somewhere.
I'll keep on trying until my dying day.
I just need to know whatever has happened,
the truth will free my soul.

Lost in the darkness, try to find your way home.
I want to embrace you and never let you go.
Almost hope you're in heaven so no one can hurt your soul.
Living in agony cause I just do not know
where you are.

Wherever you are, I won't stop searching.
Whatever it takes, I need to know.

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It's my long-time fave song by WT and now, I'm realising that all those songs I used to listen to have the right meaning for me. And this one too only with one difference, the person is not dead and eventhough he's so close, I need to find my way to him...

Koneeseen kadonnutta
Ei voi takaisin saada
Kulutettu, käytetty
Ruokkimaan ympyrää

Luotettu ehkä liikaa
Siihen että aika korjaa
Se minkä vuoksi nähtiin
Niin kovin paljon vaivaa

Että hajalle saatiin
Se mikä kauniisti tarkoitettiin

Kipu kuolee huutamalla
Alastomana lattialla
Miten kauan sitä kestää
Ei, sitä ei voi tietää

Kehen sattuu ja kuinka paljon
Siitä kysymys elämässä kai on
Kun on saavuttu siihen pisteeseen
Ei mikään ole varmaa

Maailman pisimmät tunnit
Niiden otteeseen jää kiinni
Niitä kantaa loppuun asti
Vaikka itse ei aina huomaa

Millainen on se taivas
Jota ei löydetty koskaan
Olen kuullut paljon siitä
Osan jopa omasta suustani

Voi niin pitkälle jaksaa
Kun itselleensä vaan vakuuttaa

Joku meistä on onneton
Palanut mutta tunnoton
Katuva mutta uskoton
Enemmän kuin rauhaton

Periaate on ehdoton
Perustelu on aukoton
Yhtälö ehkä mahdoton
Miten niin muka armoton

Kipu kuolee huutamalla
Alastomana lattialla
Vaan miten kauan sitä kestää
Ei, sitä ei voi tietää

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hope I'll be able to see them 23-2-2007 in Nosturi !!!!

The long-waited gig was on Tuesday in Vienna, very pretty city for rock gigs :)
On my way to Vienna or better to say in Vienna I've got lost, but I found my way after an hour :D
Then me and my friend (later friends) have been waiting for the gig since early afternoon.
The gig itself was very good, no it was great, not amazing, but GREAT.
I enjoyed the support band Jann Wilde & Roses Avenue a lot. The joke with bananas and stuck drum's sticks was nice even though it irritated me due to lack of time. But the band is very entertaining and I like the voice of Mr. Wilde, but I like more the voice of 'Boy George', he really looks like him.
Nice idea that both of them are singing, I mean, most of the songs were sang by Mr. Wilde but some of them by 'Boy George'.
And Negative? The absolute highlight for me was Angels won't lie which I longed to hear for so long live, I was disappointed they didn't play it in Vienna in February, but now, ohh... even though they stopped before my fave 'I'm sleeping with eyes wide open'.
They played quite a lot of the old songs and also previous singles which I enjoyed the most probably, pretty great old times (oh the memories) and of course, I love them for playing In Memoriam (Immortal Peace)...
I think guys had nice time on stage, the audience was good too and what absolutely shocked me was Nakki. I was just staring at him while he was singing so high and in other song so rough, it was niiice.
And Jonne's voice... greeeat, only in the club was poor sound, not that bad as on Kryštof gig in Brno, but for example I first couldn't hear Mr. Wilde at all but then it was better.
I have 6 pics, will put the links here later, and vids.

PS: Sorry to Mr. Liimatainen, he'd understand it if he'd know about it...

Currently listening: Entwine - Time of despair

pics:
Mr. Wilde: http://i3.photobucket.com/albums/y67/JonneNegative/Vienna%2021-11-06/P1010002.jpg
http://i3.photobucket.com/albums/y67/JonneNegative/Vienna%2021-11-06/P1010005.jpg
http://i3.photobucket.com/albums/y67/JonneNegative/Vienna%2021-11-06/P1010006.jpg
Tender: http://i3.photobucket.com/albums/y67/JonneNegative/Vienna%2021-11-06/P1010003.jpg
http://i3.photobucket.com/albums/y67/JonneNegative/Vienna%2021-11-06/P1010004.jpg

Ngt: http://i3.photobucket.com/albums/y67/JonneNegative/Vienna%2021-11-06/P1010170.jpg
http://i3.photobucket.com/albums/y67/JonneNegative/Vienna%2021-11-06/P1010169.jpg
http://i3.photobucket.com/albums/y67/JonneNegative/Vienna%2021-11-06/P1010168.jpg
http://i3.photobucket.com/albums/y67/JonneNegative/Vienna%2021-11-06/P1010167.jpg
http://i3.photobucket.com/albums/y67/JonneNegative/Vienna%2021-11-06/P1010165.jpg

... and PLACEBO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

vids: http://www.youtube.com/profile?user=nalleann
audio: http://www.bigupload.com/d=413E4EB3

their new album, well, nice to hear new songs by them, I like some of them, but I didn't have time to listen to it more and with lyrics but like my friend said, it's about death, cancer, family

EDIT: I liiike the new album, can't wait to translate the lyrics but you know, few months ago those words would help me, now I feel like I'm sorry for the person who has been living the lyrics :(