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hih, now I know why they didn't accepted me for the Masaryk's University and it was useless to send the repeal, becoz they will accept everyone with better results than me whether he/she has sent them the repeal or not
but nevermind, I'm gonna live as long as my destiny wants
well, I have this line on my mind: "we're gonna make it somehow"
it always helped me and now too

but stop with complaining, no, there is always 'bright side of this suffering' and it's my nameday
hehe thank you ÂŽofi for the large and beautiful Finland, that was the most original greeting I've ever had :D
and thx ali, I think today is the day of Ice Age, outside is sooo cold, I'm only wondering how come it doesn't snow :D

heh, when man is down and somebody starts to talk about freezing cold and having a cup of hot tea every half an hour it can help from that neverending hot weather :D
thank you, it brought me back up on my feet, sounds stupid enough to make me laugh :D

but I don't know, now it's pretty interesting, everything's upside down, waiting is killing me, I have to admit it but then what will come next? the temptation of something new is calling me and that's what I like... what I always liked

eventhough I'm more than worried I'm smilling right now and the unsecure feeling is dead for a moment, well, at least this talk with my mum today really helped me, never do such a thing but it was good, but I won't practise it much often coz bothering others with my problems... no, never, friends, relatives etc are here to cheer them up not to bring them down (okie, don't take me as an example!) and still, nobody is gonna understand me ever, of course, there could be somebody one day who can see at the bottom of my soul but only the same person as me can understand me and they say everyone is special so I won't find another 'me' ever, but it's better out this way...

now, or better from 1. 9. 06 the new life will begin, where? how? somewhere, somehow... anyway it all ends up with endless sleeping after all :) so what's the deal

have a great time wherever you are

but this one was pretty cool (I mean cool not cool :) )
I was sledging down our street where I live hehe it was pretty hot night so the dream was at least cold :-)

thank you all who left a comment in my irc-galleria, unfortunately I had to erase all the pics *sob sob* so also with your lovely comments
so kiitos and have a great time wherever you are

I longed to hear this song again, now it's not connected with my mood, for the first time, just I had a feeling that I need to hear it, *in this time of despair* oh...can't wait for the new album

Eternal is the pain that you gave me
Lonely roses wither and die
These tears of mine stain your veil
I'm forced to hide and fade away
So soon the time will come
Take my life and bring me to the ground

In this Time of Despair
When all that you love is dead
It's my desireless game to be alive

It's a heart of stone that beats inside
I'm forced to climb over the walls
Stillness falls upon this endless night

In this Time of Despair
When all that you love is dead
It's my desireless game to be alive
I'm trying to get well
But I'm just cryin' for the end
It's my desireless way to be alive

Eternal is the pain that you gave me
Lonely roses wither and die

21-11-2006 Negative, Vienna club Szene, I wanna go, to hear Anorectic album and enjoy the time, what you think Pee?

Woah, what a weird dream I had last night. For such a long time I haven't had a dream about musicians and yesterday even about two, hehe lets say two in one.

The explanation in brackets is the similarity in real life.


The first one was situated on our high school party at the end of our studies, it was some leaving party or better to say ball.

I left pretty fast after beginning (at our leaving party I left after one hour or so and my teacher reproached it to me yesterday) and went to some kaffee. There was Eicca from Apocalyptica and I went straight to him (hehe, this will never happen in reality that I would dare to go to some person, not even famous) and started to talk to him about music. He was nice and we talked a bit, I asked about Kalevala (Finnish national epos). If Kalevala theme reflects in their lyrics/songs and he said yes. Then I had to leave to the leaving party again, it was important and he promised me to wait for me so he went away with me to that party.

I sat down at a table and Eicca sat down near my table so I could clearly see him.

Then it was the end of the ceremony and we met again to going on talking about music but my first dream ended up in here so have no clue what happened next maybe I asked him, if the music of Jean Sibelius influenced their music lol.

But I have no idea why Eicca was in my dream. I like some songs by Apocalyptica but I don't know all of their work and I didn't even browse the internet to search for sth about Apo so really have no clue why he was in my dream.


The second dream was weirdest. I know why I dreamt like that. Becoz of this picture:

http://www.rmj.fi/pictures/images/Uniklubi2.jpg

I found it out yesterday, the pic from Raumanmeren Juhannus 2006 and I was pretty angry.

Look at Teemu, hes wearing dress, same idea like Eero (TR) had few years ago, Jussi wearing the same sweater like Eero in recent gigs and Antti (actually he is a sweetheart, so I couldn't be angry at him that much) looks like bald, since when he's wearing scarf?
Oki, there is nothing weird about what they wear, the scarf is pretty useful esp. in summer, the sweater is probably more uncomfortable in summer, but that's Jussi, what we would expect from him? And the dress, its quite comfortable to wear it in summer, esp. without underwear!

But you know, I was angry (not that much but still) becoz of the similarity with TR.
Actually I respect when Janne told me he doesn't like TR, I respect their opinions, I respect even what Teemu says about TR in media but hey, some things are too much he can express his thoughts (we live in democracy, at least I hope so) but some of his words get me angry. How can he even dare? *no, stay calm*

So about the dream. It was in my bedroom, my friend came to me and brought me new album of Uniklubi (will be released in first quarter of 2007 maybe) so we listened to it.

First song was like it was sang by a woman, no Uniklubi sound at all, second one was I think Huomenna (so definitely Unis song) and the third one. Actually it didn't sound like Uni again, was sang by other male artist but I thought it's by Uniklubi anyway. It was a coversong from The Rasmus. And becoz I was so freaked out from yesterday (the similarity with TR in dressing, esp. Teemu) I got angry that Uniklubi even dare to make a coversong from The Rasmus (have no clue which one unfortunately). Actually it wasn't that bad one, but I thought it's by Uniklubi so I was swearing and for me it was shit what they did.

Then suddenly appeared Jussi (singer of Uni) right in front of me in my small room. He probably sang the coversong and I started to beat him and he fell down to the ground.

Well, when I woke up, I was pretty ashamed that I was so angry with him becoz of nothing but hey, it was a dream, in reality I can't even kill a fly (coz it's too fast for me). No, I probably know why I was dreaming like that.

Yesterday I had quite bad day so first came Eicca (it could be any other person in the world) and comforted me becoz I could speak about my fave theme, music. And then I was a bit angry with esp. Teemu and Jussi and becoz I would never ever express my anger in reality, at least it vaporized in that dream.

PS: take it just like a dream, no offence to anyone!

I hear your whispers
break the silence and it calms me down
Your taste on my lips
your salty kisses

They say I'm seeking out the danger
That one day you won't let me go
(I'll drown, you'll take me down)

I need you Aquarius
enchanted I will have to stay
I feel you Aquarius
cause you the sea set me free
You call to me Aquarius
(You call to me, you set me free)

I relinquish to your powers
From your grasp, I just can't hide
Missed the danger I had to conquer
You made me feel alive

They say I have to be aware
that one day you won't let me go
(I'll drown, you'll take me down)

I long for you Aquarius
I need to be with you again
I fear you, Aquarius
My destiny till the end

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I love the orchestral version, so damn amazing!

Awww... it was all so nice!
Great gig (like I've been to so many gigs of Placebo, right *rolling eyes*)!
But I can say I heard lots of live songs or gigs of Placebo and this one was pleasant!
I love when the whole audience is lapping their hands along the sound ohh...was pretty cool.
Even though I promised myslef to go to their gig in Czech when they come back, I don't have money so no gig for me :(
So I can be glad I was browsing the MTV Germany and found out that 20:15 will be their live set on TV.
I was pretty freaky, didn't know where is some empty video tape (it's been ages I've been recording for the last time, it's been also ages I've been watching TV for the last time) but everything went right so the gig could start.
The setlist was:

Infra-red (the lastest single)
Meds
Because I want you
Drag
Space Monkey
Special Needs
Post Blue
Song to say goodbye
Follow the cops back home
Every me, every you
Black eyed
One of a kind
Bitter end
Twenty years

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encore:
Running up that hill (cover of Kate Bush)
Special K
Nancy Boy


But I was missing This picture (sob sob)
Anyway, they surprised me a looot with Running up that hill coz I know the version of that song in the original way and also (my fave) version by Within Temptation but this was cool!
Cannot compare to WT anyway.
The songs from Meds album I don't like much. Only Song to say goodbye which has really interesting video but they played my fave from Meds called Follow the cops back home. Nice slow ballad I'd say and live it's amazing!
With Every me, every you everyone had to recognize Placebo coz this song knows really everyone but Black eyed was WOAH. Of course I do so much love the video version of that song coz it was the first song I've ever heard from Placebo and I have totally great memories for it.
Bitter end the great fast song. I love the end in here, it's pretty messy or how to describe it.
And Twenty years? The memory of my promise (which I'm breaking) to see this band live and the video and ahh yep, it's all about memories.
When I was watching the gig it was like book of history. From my beginning with the band with Black eyed to my latest love Follow the cops back home. But it's been few years already but all those years were pressed into like an hour set.

Hey hou!
I'm so tired but anyway, I'm so fuc*ing glad that I could spend such a niiice day with you sweet!
Really, woah, you made my day, my week :) I could be myself again, thank you a lot, more than ever before probably.
Have nothing to write 'bout English, it sucked but it's over woohoo.
Hope those two people are invisible and you can enjoy your time to relax .-)
It was lots of fun and maybe nerves today, but it was worthy day.
I miss the chance to go with you to Finland, but it's better of this way, I'm pretty sure but I do not have money so whatever.
But please, more than anything, when you come back, you have to tell me everything you will want, okey? I'm longing to hear how you spent your time in this wonderful country & 'minun Kaupunki' *going pink*.
Rather go sleep, tomorrow another English test but in Brno, so it's so close, I feel home there not like in the STRANGE Prague.
Kiitos once again and sooner or later, see you there .-)
*mlask*

Listening: Missing pieces by ShamRain