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is up (for quite long time now heh) and yesterday's emotional break is gone

I'm just working on my new website (*headesk*) because when I create a layout and like it, I found it not perfect and start again and it goes like that always and I'm running out of ideas :(
but I like it anyway, hope to get some money soon to be able to buy some little stones :D hehe to make new clothes and new pair of gloves would be cool either, I know, it's just summer, but it's cheaper than later :)
well, that's all about what's going on, of course, those 'dreams' that I will start to learn Spanish and Finnish again and more English... hope it will come true either soon but not before I will make the website lol

have a great new week and sleep tight *:D it just come up to my mind PL's song*

I know I know, again, but tonight... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JPJFkMyE8SU (sweet memories of this gig, unforgetable)
ahhh, I feel so down, not because of myself but my friends, after such a long time I have a chance to talk to them and we talk about everything and... I'm so sorry for them, I mean, they all are fine more or less, some problems, but what made me sad was what my brother said: Why is she living like that? Where is the use of it?, he can't understand, he has everything, beloved family, who cares about him but there are people who has no family and most of the time they feel insecurity and pain,
but I'm so happy someone else saved me from this heavy what I felt on my heart, just one pic, and I'm alive again, not that I feel happy again, the heavy is still there but I can't feel it that much

and why Placebo, well, I'm listening to Blind, it's such an amazing song, I mean, Brian's voice and watching live vids (mostly made by my friend) and simply all in all = pain, hurt, unfair, and even though it's not about me, I don't experience anything like that now, I feel it for my friends

I'm so sorry for this post but I had to write it down

gonna check more Blind live vids... and get more depressed, wish this would help to those who needs it

ahh.. probably they are just performing in Slovakia festival, maybe not yet
but it's great to spend evening with their live records and feel almost like I'd be there
actually I don't regret I'm not there, I enjoyed them last month and lots of new things happened to me, so no need for a gig of Placebo right now... okey okey, if there would be Manboy again, I'd go and nothing could stop me, even the lack of money in my pocket lol
but while I was listening to those live songs of Placebo, I suddenly realise how thankful I am for my life, okey, it's nothing special but also nothing bad, it's like me and other people create it, nothing more nothing less and I can't expect unexpected when I don't do anything for it
on the other hand I'm so glad I know what I know, I know who I know, I mean, even though it sounds silly, but I'm just listening to Reflexion (after like half a year again) and I'm so glad I know their music, of course, it's silly and not important but it makes me feel good and other people would say they don't mind not knowing them, of course, because they wouldn't mean anything to them, it's just about finding what you like and enjoy it
oh, rather don't read this, my mind is quite sleepy and again I'm writing things what comes up to my mind so it's messy lol

see you all at the weekend on MSN .-) ..........caaaan't wait hope it won't be raining (if there is a storm, I have to switch off my PC :( )

I forgot (of course, my old brain) to wish YOU ALL a great summer holiday and lots of fun!!!

"If you love somebody, let them go
If they return, they were always yours
If they don't, they never were"

quote from my sis journal: http://xfoolforyoux.livejournal.com/

I like this quote a lot, maybe it's even true, I mean, Ville wrote me a msg that he will be back in September, you don't even know how much I wanted him to stay, that I'd be the reason for him to stay in Czech and ... he will come back, not because of me, but anyway
but I finally managed to get over him and I thought I will never ever be able, but it is like this and he is just a sweet memory with bitter taste but nothing else
the cure - Hell-sin-ki - was amazing and once again it helped me to be there
kiitos kaikille, love you

and yeah, I have busy time now, lots of things to do and I wanna do lots of things either, so please be patient with my replies, I'm just trying to find time to write you and trust me, I do wanna write you lots of things from my heart, just need the time
and I'm preparing a new website of my own and you know, I will put reviews, pics, vids and more there, but I didn't even have time to think about the layout yet, so it will take time 'till I start with that but I can't already wait, I need to create something again, I miss it a lot

so koita parjäillä (hope it's written like that) everyone and give me a bit of time, I miss you all

PS: I'm coming back home on 26th of June but at home I will be actually on 28th

Breaking up is hard to do, but sometimes making up can be even harder. You and someone important are on your way to repairing your relationship, but it is still going to take some long heart-to-hearts to get things to a healthy place. Good communication requires trust and honesty -- which happen to be two of your specialties! The stars say that you should stop being afraid and start opening up. You two will end up stronger than you ever were before.

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Do You think it will get repaired, me and Ville's relationship, I beg for it but who knows *crying* and I had a dream about him once again, it hurt...

awww.... it's was excellent.
I had too many worries and problems at that day, not only that I had no place to stay overnight after the gig coz all the busses go in the morning, but the next day (after the whole night without any sleep) I had 2 exams.
And I really regreted that I went there, all those probs around it but then...
it's always like that, I regret it instead of look forward and then, fortunately, someone up there make it so damn great and I do not regret anything, I'm happy to decided to go

The support band totally surprised me. They are from Finland and I do love the most the song 'Water', it's amazing live, but they were almost that good as Placebo itself O.o I really loved them and too bad I miss them in Helsinki (stupid exams).

And Placebo, shall I add something? Nooo, they were the best, I love Brian's voice and finally I could see him (barely) live but his voice is much much more 'taller' than him. It was a brill show but too short and they played all of my fave songs except 'Black eyed' (I'd start to cry probably if they would play).
I'd love to see them again but that's impossible for some time, nevermind, I had a brill time once again and put some drugs into my veins by this gig (of course my music drug!!!).

Kiitos everyone for making it so perfect after all!
And special thx to Bananova, you saved my life... once again, I owe you.


PS: Setlist:
1) Infra-red
2) Because I want you
3) Meds
4) Drag
5) Sleeping with Ghosts
6) I know
7) song to say Goodbye
8) Follow the Cops back Home
9) Every You every Me
10) Special Needs
11) One of a kind
12) Without You I'm Nothing
13) Post Blue snad
14) Blind
15) Special K
16) Bitter End

encore:
17) Running up that Hill (cover)
18) Taste in Men
19) Twenty Years

just in Czech

no taak, hadejte o kom to bylo, no jasne, kdo jinej, Ville
byl ridicem busu v PV, na zastavce v Domamyslicich, mel jet do Brna, ale bus vypadal jak normal MHDecko
sla jsem prvni a zaplatila si jizdenku do Brna, mezitim za mimy zady na Villeho lapaly rukama nejaky my spoluzacky a chtely uz k nemu
vydal mi listek a pak si uvedomil, ze tam nejede, aha, tak jsem chtela vystoupit, ale pak jsem si uvedomila, ze nebudu mit penize na listek do Brna, tak jsem chtela, aby mi ty penize vratil, ale on nevedel jak -> zmatek
tak jsem se na to vykaslala, na co do Brna, abych z Brna mohla do PV, kdyz uz jsem v PV
tak jsem vybehla a utikala domu (mam to kousek) a Ville za mnou, ale nestihl me (myslim)
a tenhle sen byl driv nebo pozdejc (nevim) - Ville byl u nas ve sklepe, na cerno, nikdo o nem nevedel a podaval mi listecek, ja ho zahodila aniz bych se na nej podivala, asi to bylo rozlouceni, a prepadl me pocit, ze se mu chci oprit o hrud, coz pro me znamena pocit bezpeci, ale neudelala jsem to, prtz mezi nama nic neni

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proc se mi to zdalo, nevim, rano v pondeli nejela poulicka a ja malem nestihla zadnej bus do Hradce, svatej tatka me tam hodil
ironie je, ze Ville nema ani ridicak a neumi tak dobre cesky
ty spoluzacky, co na nej smataly, jsou jeho kamaradky
a mezi nama dvema proste doslo zase k nedorozumeni, zmatkum a vzdani se
to s tim utekem, asi se uz nestihneme rozloucit nez odjedu/de

a ten listecek, ja mu psala SMS a cekala odpoved, ktera neprisla, tak asi proto se mi to zdalo, jako touha hehe a ze byl ve sklepe na cerno, no asi ze nasi o nem sice vedi, ale jen tolik, aby nemohli nic rikat, takze je to vpodtate taky na cerno

btw. I've changed my hair colour - by accident, so no more blond (okie, until I'm in Helsinki again (fiiiha, in just 2 weeks I'm at home again)